Took a huge step last night.

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So last night at a party I told my two roommates about my Abdlism. Never really planned on it but we have all gotten pretty close, and one of them said. “You’d be a coward to not say whatever is bugging you.” Those weren’t the exact words. It might not have sounded like the nicest thing in the world to say, but god damn it he was right. I have to face life forthrightly and I’m not gonna keep running away from who I am.

So I told them, I told them about I have no idea why I have this attraction. I told them about how it changed my relationship with my family, I told them about how I’m scared of making it work with relationships and how it’s ruined a few in the past. How it’s the cause of pretty much all my mental illness and my grief with the world. They listened and don’t judge me for who I am. We all had a long conversation about the things we were all scarred to say to everyone. I’m not gonna mention their issues that’s on them to share.

But I feel good letting people know who I am. I can be myself and not feel like a freak. I still have problems with negative self talk. But this has been a massive step for me. Never saw it coming, but this is me.

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That sounds great! I’ve heard too many stories about how such confessions turned out worse to try it myself, and I still advise against it if you are not absolutely certain of your roommates’ (or whoseever) reliability.

Nonetheless, I feel really happy for you.

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Glad or worked out. For the negative thoughts you might try countering them with positives. If you find yourself having negative are thought wow down something positive about yourself. On the days you just can’t find anything go and read your past entries.

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GOOD for you babylink. It has got to be nerve-wracking but you done good !!! Now, indeed, you gotta find a way to stop negative thinking. Let me just say, without knowing a thing about you, YOU ARE A FANTASTIC HUMAN BEING !!! Any of us who are not harming others, and being true to ourselves, are wonderful beings. Be strong, be good, be kind, and remind yourself every day that you are beautiful !!!

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It’s great to have good friends who would never judge. That’s what friends do (or don’t do).

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Thanks everyone. It feels great to be able to tell friends that I trust and still my relationship with them hasn’t hurt me. I’ve had issues with that in the past. I’ve needed this to go well for me. I’m scared there are lingering thoughts but I hope if anyone has questions they come and ask me. It’s been a really weird few days. The future is exciting and I’m always impatient. What a strange life.

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