For some reason I’m stuck in between acceptance and doubt when it comes to my ABDL side. I know I enjoy it. I know I need it to a degree, but always always always question myself if and when I have time for it. Diapering up helps my stress, my confidence, and my overall happiness, but I keep stopping myself from actually enjoying it. Like today, I have all day to wear and enjoy myself in the setting of my locked room, but I keep holding it off. Thoughts like, “It’s not a good time” Or “Someone will notice” Or “Someone will need you soon” these questions always come up. It’s both ignoring and troublesome. I thought with time the problem would either not be as bad or just be gone, but it always remains. If anyone can help me with this or know how to deal with this, I would love the advice.
My only advice is to not care what anyone else will think. So long as you are not hurting others, hurting yourself, or doing anything illegal, do what it is that satisfies you and feels natural to you. Your true friends will accept you regardless. Those that won’t accept you with this knowledge were not true friends to begin with; and, you will have discovered that fact sooner rather than later.
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I hope this video can help. I’ve been been struggling through a small purge cycle lately as well. I keep getting caught up in thinking of being ABDL as a cognitive/psychological condition rather than as a personality trait. Once I start losing sight of that I start to think of it as weird and struggle with just leaving everything behind, but I already know how well that would probably work. I’ve been going over this video as it helps remind me that self-acceptance is key and that being ABDL is a lot healthier than the other types of coping mechanisms I could have (drugs, alcohol, etc.). I hope it is able to help you with some of the issues you are having.
- Lightstreak
im from missouri i work as a server in a retirement apartments its an ok job.. but that’s just it its a job… if your up for talking i’m all ears.. hugs im trying to figure out how to message you in private on this site… i think you and i are in the same boat when it comes to emotional headspace…
I think if you just take the plunge and wear even if it might be inconvenient, after awhile you’ll feel more comfortable. I used to feel that way going out shopping. Now, I just put on a diaper, go out and don’t give it that much thought other than knowing I’m diapered and I’m enjoying being diapered.
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So it’s okay to want to wear all the time. I just don’t feel safe with wearing all the time. It worries me
Sounds like anxiety try to find a way to help yourself relax I’m on 4grams of taurine a day and its wonderful it’s over the counter and it’s very safe look it up I do 2grams morning and night
Sure it is. I wear 24/7 because I enjoy wearing diapers. I don’t need to; but, I want to. I’m 75 and will wear them the rest of my life. In my mind, I have no use for conventional underwear. If ever I become incontinent I won’t have to worry about adjusting to diapers. I’m already there and thoroughly enjoy them. Remember, wearing diapers isn’t something you have to share with friends and family if you don’t want to. However, if you are in a serious relationship, or become involved in one, you will want to let your partner in on your ABDL side so they can determine their level of acceptance from the beginning. If that person truly loves you, it shouldn’t be an issue. They may not want to participate and that’s okay. My wife actually has a difficult time even saying the word “diaper.” When she’s gathering garbage rather than asking if I have any diapers that need to be tossed out she will simply ask if I have “anything” I need to add to the garbage. That’s fine. I don’t ask her to get involved with my diapers in any manner and she has no issue that I lounge around the house in them.
I’m not sure why you wouldn’t feel safe wearing them. If you’re concerned about someone discovering that you wear, you could wear pull ups while your out and about and cloth or tape diapers at home. Most pull ups really are detectable under your clothing. When you’re home by yourself, who is going to know?
Like you I wear for stress relief and to contribute to my mental wellbeing, in addition to the simple enjoyment it brings me. I find that I wear a lot more some weeks and less others depending on my stress levels and overall mood. It seems that whilst there are positives for you in wearing in terms of stress relief etc you are actually feeling anxious about doing so for the reasons you’ve mentioned for reasons only known to you.
You need time to yourself, time to forget any worries and just do what makes you happy. When I wear I can forget all of my troubles, it’s like all the weight of any responsibility is lifted off my shoulders.
It seems the reasons you give as to why you shouldn’t wear stem from worrying about other people “Someone will notice” and “Someone will need you soon”. It may be hard but take some time just to think about you and you’re needs.
I struggle with accepting myself too when it comes to it 
@KryanAshford , what is your current living situation? Are you living at home, with roommates, etc.? Is there a possibly of changing your living arrangement in the future? Or have you ever considered coming out to others in the house? There are so many posts here about people telling their parents, roommates, S/O, etc. I know it’s far from a trivial decision, but that would be another way of dealing with the anxiety. Do you ever wear out of the house? When I was first getting comfortable with diapers, I’d sometimes drive an hour out of town to go shopping for the day, knowing that if anything happened, the chance of meeting anybody I knew was minuscule. Maybe that’s a possibly?
I still live at home, while working on myself, I have no idea what to do with life. But back to the subject at hand. I live with my family. They’re no very open minded. Being anything outside of “normal” is wrong. I’m barely able to get away with just wanting to be alone in life. I’m not ready for someone to be with me in life. My family is already throw out I might be gay, but I just haven’t felt anything special with anyone yet. I haven’t felt that spark with anyone yet.
Oof… I’m still swimming in self doubt even after years of being out to my SO. Had a long chat with her recently. She still doesn’t get it. But says it’s not the worst thing so it’s ok.
I would like to make a suggestion. You’ve been a member on this site for 8 years; so, I’m going to assume you are at least 24 if not 28 years old. If I’m anywhere near close I would suggest you work hardest at securing your own living arrangements. Once you’re able to that you will gain a sense of self reliance and have more confidence in yourself. I understand there is a financial burden that has to be met. But, no matter what it is we want in life, we have to generally work for it. I have worked 2 jobs at the same time in my life. I didn’t want to; but, I had to so I did. Look for a reasonable place to live at a reasonable price and do what you need to get in it. I have a 37 year old niece with her masters degree who live in a large city. She has a good job that pays decently; but, she lives in a studio apartment because she didn’t want to spend the money on a 1 or 2 bedroom and didn’t want a roommate to split expenses. Anyway, once you are truly on your own, you will be your own person no longer under the “direction/supervision” of your parents and no longer needing their approval. It will be liberating. I did that at age 20.
BTW, don’t worry about not knowing what you want to do with your life. I’m still trying to figure that one out and I’m retired.
It’s very very very hard considering your background. In a way I have a similar situation. I currently live with parents, they will never accept the fact that I’m gay or the fact that I’m abdl. What I can do? They might not like it, but that’s how the things are. My advice would be to find people who accept you. People who will show you that there is much more to this world than your own room and limitations imposed by your family.
It’s totally okay to enjoy your life the way you want to. It’s hard to tackle insecurity. I have that problem myself. I also want to wear diapers more, when I feel good. That doesn’t happen often and even when I wear, it takes me some time to enjoy it 
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It’s easy to make your small problems huge when you constantly think about them inside your head. I’m guilty of that too. I think that there are many people in a similar situation. It’s just how our world works. Constant expectations, rat race, stress. It’s simply getting harder and harder to become self-sufficient. This whole pandemic is keeping me away from that once again. You just try to enjoy yourself and treat yourself well. If you keep away the need to wear diaper completely, it will hit you back like a boomerang. On the other hand - you don’t have to wear every time you have a chance to do it. It’s entirely up to you and you don’t really need to explain yourself to anyone.
Get diapered when you can. I enjoy it as a stress reliever in the morning. Have a goal to be living alone. Unless you have a plan, then it is just a dream. Plan didn’t work? Keep the goal and make a new plan.