Hey i’m actually 18 years old and i think i identify as hetero but always when im horny i think of being a Sissy and getting used and thats makes me even more horny. I even bought 3 Dildos , butt plugs , panties, fishnet and 2 chastity cage after i cum i’m Just disturbed of myself and this drives me crazy. I Used to watch normal porn but now i just watch sissy porn and then i Imagine being this girl and then i Just want it even more. When im horny i could even Imagine being a fulltime sissy and just be a Girl for the rest of my life. What is Happenings to me and why am i changing from a normal guy to this? And like i said before after i cum from anal or whatever i am ashamed of myself that i wanted to be a Sissy and getting fucked from a man. Is this Normal? Am i normal? Pls help me
Its all compleatly normal dear so dont worry about it . ONE of the " tricks " a Sissy Mistress have in her ways of making a Sissy cooperative is to actually keep said Sissy in chastity. Why ? Simple as long as Sissy is kept in chastity said sissy will do just about anything in Sissys power for said Mistress /Master. Once Sissy have had the chance to come well then sissy goes back to what the majority of sissies are NORMAL ORDINARY STRAIGHT men. MANY MANY MANY Sissies fantasizes of this TRUST me on this (wink)
So in conclusion based on what you telling us id say YES you are a compleatly NORMAL Sissy , And as long as you can (with time ) find a way to drop the guilt part of it all and accept that you are a Sissy then things will be just fine dear ) & NO youre not about to becoming gay either. (smiling warmly)
Honestly, IMHO you are just going thru the continuing development of your sexuality. It would be the rare exception that a person your age has developed their sexual desires 100%. Heck, I’m 75 and still working on mine. While we think we know what we’re all about at your age, we really don’t have a clue. An example, when I was 18 I was sexually approached by a male friend. I rebuffed his approach thinking there was no way on earth I’d ever want to have gay sex. While I never have engaged in gay sex, I’m not so sure I wouldn’t have it and enjoy it under the right circumstances. I just started wearing women’s panties about 4 or 5 months ago and I love having them on. I started wearing diapers a bit over 3 years ago. I’ve been wearing them 24/7 and will never be without them. A good portion of porn that I watch is also of sissy guys. It turns me on envisioning me in their place.
The point is don’t beat yourself up over these things. Sexual experimentation and fantasizing is completely normal. Those things that you find you like may become things you want to regularly enjoy. Some of them may drop off your radar over time to be replaced by other things. There is often a lot said about being open with a person’s partner when it comes to all things sexual. What is rarely said is a person should be open to themselves, too. But, remember, this is all a learning experience as you learn what you like, what you don’t like, what you wish to participate in doing, and what makes you uncomfortable. Enjoy the journey and don’t ever feel guilty.
If you murder someone - then it’s time to feel guilty.
It’s not a magical transformation. Your body simply found a fetish that it is interested in. Look deeper into the reasons and track down what you focus on when your pleasing yourself or being in space that your confused about. By stemming those relations you will quickly see where it comes from. Did you see something from that that made you happy or excited? Was it from an event? Then focus on those traits and you will have an answer.
For example me, I like skirts and pink diapers. Why? It’s because of an experience when I was excited and anxious of doing something unusual and naughty and cute. Then i thought humm cute…what if I try other cute things etc.
Your body is going through normal exploration and change. Its okay and if you enjoy it nobody is here to stop you. Now if you feel guilty or worried immediately after it may be something to keep an eye on but if it’s something you enjoy and want then go with the flow
Yes you are normal, just a phase you are going thru don’t let it bother you, wish I could sit and talk w/ you in person sorry, be well
I can give you advice from from someone who is not a member of this scene and might have a less biased view.
There are many many many different kinks and fantasies that people have, your fantasy is one of them. No problem man, there’s nothing wrong with what you are doing.
Trust me on this one… one way to build confidence and discover the scene is to **visit some love/sex shops and simply stroll around, build up the courage to speak with some workers. **You will realize that there are a lot of others who do some pretty freaky stuff in the privacy of their bedroom.
Did you know some people stick probes inside their penis and send electrical shocks? I’d much rather dress like a sissy and take a pounding than electrocute my penis!
BUT its a problem that you have so much guilt and resentment; it’s not good for mental health. Trust me man… you’re not doing anything wrong. Be safe, find a healthy balance, and find some confidence.
Also, regardless of what act is being performed… it’s not unusual to feel a rush of guilt and regret after you climax.
You sound completely normal to me. You’re whipping yourself silly over something that is OK and normal. You’re young and trying to define your sexuality and who you are. The guilt you feel is because of the societal norms that are placed on us guys. To my way of thinking, you need to put the guilt aside and learn to enjoy yourself and who you are and what you like. I know quite a few young men like you who are going through the same thing and they are learning to accept themselves and enjoy their newfound sexuality. It’s really a wonderful thing that you are defining yourself. 
You and your interests are nothing to be ashamed of and valid
I have the same sort of problem. I really enjoy a large dildo and even larger butt plug. I mostly put my fantasies into just being a baby girl, pink cloths diaper plastic pants tutu. Its fleeting though, not sure what to think about it. I don’t think I’m gay though as I don’t like it and no one has the size penis as my dildo and I want larger even.
Last year, I was looking through Etsy and saw Kim from BigTots introduced a white baby-doll dress for Adult Babies…and it instantly said “buy me!” to me, so…I did. I’d never worn any girl’s clothing before…but I put it on over a diaper when it arrived and it feels so natural. This came after I realized I am agender (and am an asexual bio-male).
It’s the closest I’ve ever come to feeling like a little toddler girl…and it’s amazing.
Now, I have a few baby dresses and girly onesies, plus a pink bottle and pacifiers…plus some pink MegaMax diapers. The overall moral: never be afraid to try different. But be honest with yourself, too. Be safe, learn, enjoy!
Lesling there is nothing wrong with you. There is no reason for you to feel guilty or ashamed of yourself. I am a sissy and love every aspect of my life. Before I married my wife I was alone for quite a few years and experimented sexually. I had sex with men and women alike and I have to admit I enjoyed it. I knew I was bisexual by the age of 9 and it never bothered me. I enjoyed my high school years and had many guys that I dated and also many women. I met a girl at 18 years old that I thought was perfect for me and we dated and she introduced me to the crossdresser scene. She shaved me down and dressed me for a Halloween party that changed my life. I looked in the mirror and I saw a beautiful sexy, leggy woman and I loved it. At this party I danced with every guy there and was felt up by every guy I danced with. I went to the bathroom twice to relieve my erection. It was the new me and I never looked back. I did divorce this woman 8 yrs later because she was very unfaithful to me. Now at age 43 I have been with this woman 3 years and we married back in may and she reinforced my love of being a sissy. She loved me with her heart. Watching porn is normal at your age and I still watch porn with my wife. I love when my wife gets the strapon and makes me feel like the sissy that I am. Also I love her in return. I never ever want to remove my penis or anything like that because my penis is what has given me the edge in many situations. I have never taken hormones and I will always be a diaper loving bisexual sissy , Dont fight it , embrace it sweetie and life will be so much better for you.