I have this theory that days balance themselves out. Sometimes you’ll have a few good days, followed by a few awful ones. A lot of time, though, I find it is one day, then the next. Since yesterday was a great day - finding a new place to live where I was accepted - guess what happened today?
I awoke to a voice mail from the wife of the home, telling me that the suite had instead been given away to one of the guys they hire to talk care of the home. Before you start offering outrage and advice, keep in mind: no contract had been signed yet, no money had changed hands, and I hadn’t brought in any of my possessions. She didn’t even ask for a deposit since she knew I wasn’t going to break anything. In other words, I shizz out of luck.
As such, the search started anew. I still have over three weeks and I’m not freaking out as much as I thought I would. Just a rather dismal reversal of the joy from yesterday.
I actually track my mood, and I’ve found that it’s not balanced at all. My life significantly improved once I bought some fun stuff I wanted and started making music. Some people are just happier than others, and a big part of it is how you see the world, sort of like optimism/pessimism but a little different. When I get mad or upset I just ask myself if it’s really worth it, if I gain anything from being mad or sad, and the answer is always no, so I just do something I enjoy and find myself in a better mood in 15-30 minutes. If you can learn things like meditation, positive visualization, and be more healthy by excercising or doing yoga, you’ll also find that your life seemingly magically improves. Too much dopamine is also bad, so try to limit drugs and masturbation as much as possible.
It is not the big disappointments in life that grind you down but the speed bumps. I can see their point in renting to someone that they have a relationship with. When one door of opportunity closes, another opens. Search carefully since many aren’t marked.
