I did it. I finally did it. I was able to have my first little playdate and it was amazing until the end. I went home and all of a sudden everything that made me happy about abdl before didn’t make me happy. Idk if there’s just something wrong with me or if this happens to others. I don’t know what to do about it though. Just my sense of excitement about regression and being a little tot again just disappeared after my play date. Any advice or similar happenings to others?
Come down from a great experience or high is a bugger. It’s probably happened to all of us at some point or another. Usually the reason is, is that all your little or care-giver needs have been met for the momemnt at a subconscous level. Give it time and the feeling will come back, it can be tomorrow, a few days, a week or longer depending just how well and deeply ypur needs were met.
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Yeah that happens. Sometimes it happens before the event. I could be interested in wearing right up to the event, and then loose interest.
For those of us who attend the larger events and conventions on ABDL… we call it ‘Con Crash’. Because youre flying high in the emotions having a great time, and BAM!! It crashes down and ends
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You are satisfied.
That is great.
If i where you i would not dispose the ABDL stuff,
because it will come back as far as i know and then you will be Happy
to have your stuff.
After i had my Fun with a diaper i sometimes think it would be
the best to dispose all of it, and cancle orders for new ones.
But the next day im back to my Diaper desire and glad to
have my stuff.
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What you’re experiencing is called drop. It happens sometimes after intense play. Your first ABDL experience was no doubt intense and amazing, maybe the most amazing thing you’ve ever done.
Realize you’ve spent your whole life up to this holding on to the shame and guilt about who you are versus what others expect, and now you’ve found people that share your interests that you can be open and honest with.
After my first time I realized I was dropping when I was sitting home alone in the tub wondering what the hell was wrong with me. Why did I go meet some strangers, go to a play party with them, and spend the night there wearing diapers and being changed?
Eat some chocolate, take a walk outside, get some exercise, eat a good meal and engage in self care. Do not purge. You won’t feel how you’re feeling right now in another day or even a few hours. This is a chemical and biological reaction to the intense high you just felt from the release you just had.
Congratulations on your first experience, I wish you many more and intense, fulfilling relationships in the future. For now, take care of yourself and look at what you’re feeling right now for what it is - a biological and emotional crash from intense release. Know that this won’t happen every time, but the first time is pretty intense. Take care of yourself, and remember - DO NOT PURGE! You are a fine, acceptable, and worthwhile person, and other people can and will understand you.
Take care and good luck!
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imo, the addiction tends to spread a bit, trying different things till you get to your limit, im nowhere near that myself, but yes, the rollercoaster of love is just that, a rush, then slump. still once you regain it, you will be glad to have some things, and since youve contacted your little side, you may even be able to resurface it by yourself
I don’t think this is anything to worry about and I think it’s quite common, as the other responses here show.
I think when I had my first interaction as an adult baby (which, with hindsight, wasn’t all that great), the need to regress certainly seemed less fierce for a time, although it didn’t disappear entirely, but it very quickly returned to normal intensity.
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Bing/purge and general cycles of more / less interest are incredibly common - don’t get rid of stuff as you’ll regret it later. After any intense experience it’s very common to be a bit out of sorts for a while afterwards - let it pass and then see how you feel.
I myself have never been to a convention not have I met with like minded AB’s. But I go through the same kind of cycles. I will order new stuff and wear and play etc. I have always wanted to go 24/7. I recently ordered a bunch of stuff to do so. Then I hit that wall again asking myself what am I doing? Why do I do this? It really sucks to go through that. But like everyone has said never purge everything. I have stopped before for periods of time but kept all of my stuff. When it comes back it is usually stronger than before. Good job for going to the convention it’s a big step and it’s one that I haven’t taken yet. One day I would love to but first I have to except myself for who I am and what I like.
It’s so reassuring that other people have felt this too, as it’s certainly been a part of my experience. I think I’m more accepting of myself than I used to be, but this negative thought is still there sometimes. I think going to a meet-up or a convention would be a huge step, but it’s one I’d be keen to take when the opportunity arises.
Of course you are not alone. I would live to attend one for a few days so I could just be myself.
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