Genes Same Age Babysitter

Chapter 1:

Hi I’m Gene, a second year university student in Small Town Nova Scotia. Today’s a bit of a weird day for me; ya see, I’m usually babysat by my grandmother, but recently my mom had a bit of a falling out with her. Everything’s been normal if not a little bit sad now that grandma’s not around, but that normalcy is about to change. My mom’s gonna be gone most of the day starting at noon and she won’t be back until after my bedtime. So a new babysitter will be coming over, someone I’ve never had before. From what I’ve heard my Mom caught wind of the new babysitter through a friend in the neighborhood so I’m glad it’ll probably be someone I know. maybe that nice old lady across the street who always brings us raspberries or the funny couple up the street who do holistic medicine. lots of good grown ups in this neighbourhood so I’m not too worried.

I leaned back in my desk chair typing the last word of my 15,000 word engineering essay when I heard the door open. “dang 12 noon already” I mumbled. I came out of my room to see who it was and my heart sank and fluttered at the same time. It was Sasha Fuerza, the most beautiful girl in our neighbourhood. Sasha and I had grown up together always running in the same friend groups we even kissed once during a game of truth or dare.

“Hey Genie! she smiled and waved and came and hugged me. The hug felt nice as her head pressed into my chest and my forearms felt the straps of her bra. It was mostly nice to feel the warmth of another person. I’ve been very lonely since most of my friends moved across the country for better opportunities.

“Hey Sash, long time no see, how have you been?” I asked, quaking in my voice.

“Very good, I’m studying philosophy at the university and babysitting lotsa kids on the side to make extra money. Just last week I took your brother’s kids to a water park on his dime, very fun.” she smiled and her speech flowed so naturally. it was like we had spent no time apart. She turned to my mom “alright miss Littlewood I guess I should know the ground rules for taking care of this little guy.” she reached up and patted my head.

my mom began “alright, he’s allowed to walk around the neighborhood unattended but further than that you have to come with him, he’s a danger in the kitchen so you’ll have to cook his meals, his bedtime is 9:30 sharp, he has to be in bed teeth brushed by that time. Last thing most important” I braced for impact “little Genie still wets the bed so you’ll have to put him in his diaper before tucking him in. His training pants stay mostly dry in the day that’s why they’re fabric but he needs real absorbancy at night. Still, checking him in the day isn’t a bad idea.

“Alright, tight, I got this.” she said, visibly surprised by all the rules.

“Now I’m gonna shove off. you two have fun.” with that my mom was gone and the prettiest girl in the neighborhood was now officially in charge of me.

Sasha turned to me with an expectant look on her face “so, that’s a lot of rules. Are those always what you go by or is this some kind of punishment?”

I winced, embarrassed. “No, this is just normal for me.”

“huh.” she thought for a moment. “I had always heard rumours about you being in a position like this, but I figured now that we’re both 19 you would’ve moved up in the world.”

“It’s not always this awkward. My grandmother usually babysits me and I love her to death. She’s a great cook and genuinely kind so I just never felt the need to move up in the world.”

“oh, ok.” she thought for a moment again. “What if I helped you learn some things!” she smiled “I could teach you how to cook, let you have some more independence.” she gasped “have you ever been on a date?”

my face sank and I couldn’t make eye contact “N-no I haven’t.”

“That’s perfect!” she grabbed my arm and I looked down at her. “I could help you set up a bumble and I could chaperone some dates for you!”

“wow, you would do that for me?” I smiled. “My mom and grandma never let me date, or drink even though I’m legal age.”

“I don’t know about drinking and I’ll put a stop to anything sexual happening, but I don’t see anything wrong with a bit of love in your life and maybe a kiss!”

I became sad and I looked away. It hurt that she, like all the others, thought I wasn’t ready for those things.

“Well I guess that’s a good idea for as things go on. For now I’m just here for tonight and if your mom likes me I’ll come back to be a regular sitter.” She walked up close to me and smiled. “Gimme your phone! I’ll create you a profile specifically designed to get girls actually interested!”

I handed her my phone and we got to work. She took photos of me in all different angles and outfits. She even put herself in a few of them to make it seem like I have female friends. We workshopped a comedic yet charming bio with a list of my brightest green flags in the Q&A section. Before I knew it we were sitting on the couch having a blast of a time like the good ol’ days. We laughed, we gossiped, I even flirted with some internet girls with her help. It all seemed perfect until I stood up to get my third can of Pepsi.

“Hey kiddo.” she said and I blushed. “what’s that on your butt?”

I felt the seat of my charcoal grey dress pants and got nauseous. “oh no.” I thought. “I’ve been having so much fun I didn’t even notice I had to pee.”

“Did you have an accident?” Sasha asked.

“I’m sorry.” I tried not to cry, but it was clear on my face that I wanted to.

“hey hey, it’s ok.” She hugged me, then undid my belt and pulled down my pants. She squeezed my crotch and my bumm, turning me around. “It soaked right through your trainers. Let’s go get you cleaned up and in some dry training pants and I’ll sort out the couch. I looked over and saw a dark wet patch on the light grey couch and choked for just a moment, totally ashamed. she grabbed me by my wrist and pulled me into my bedroom leaving my wet pants in the living room.
She pulled down my training pants and put them in the laundry basket. I tried to cover my private parts as she asked “Where does your mother keep your other training pants and wipes?”

“My trainers are in the drawer just below the cupboard of my dresser. The wipes should be just to the right.”

She pushed me down on the bed and lifted my legs, wiping my butt thoroughly. “move your hands.” she said. “I need to wipe you there too.” she wiped my genitals and barely flinched, but I could barely contain myself. Sasha, this beautiful woman was handling my special area, the warmth and softness of her hand felt like the grace of a thousand angels. When she was done wiping she grabbed a new pair of training pants from the drawer, these ones had baseball bats, mits and balls. she put them on my legs and pulled them up, she told me to lift my bum and I did. Now I was back safe and sound in my trainers. She helped me up and spoke again. “We’ll leave you in just your trainers until bedtime so I can see if you have another accident before it leaks.”

“ok.” I said, ashamed.

“yes ma’am, you say yes ma’am.” she stated firmly.

“Yes ma’am.” I submitted.

“Now thank me for changing you.”

“Th-” it was so hard to get out. “Thank you for changing me.”

“Good boy.” she patted my head then swatted my padded bumm. Now you go watch tv I’m gonna clean the couch and make us supper.

“Yes ma’am!” I hustled out. “Thank you!”

Sasha grabbed one of my bed pads from the hallway closet and put it on the recliner chair. She told me that’s where I could sit. I turned on South park at first and then she asked if my mom says I’m allowed to watch that. I wasn’t allowed to watch it when I was younger but as time went on I started watching it and my mom never said anything. “Yeah I’m allowed.” I said, unconvincingly.

“ok…” she said as she pulled out her phone. A few minutes later a ding went off and she spoke. “ok so you lied to me.”

“what? no I didn’t!” I exclaimed. “I watch this all the time!”

“Well your mom just texted and said you’re not supposed to.” she grabbed the remote from my hand. “First I now have control over the remote all night, second you’re gonna stand in the corner for a 15 minute time out for lying, lastly you’re gonna apologize and I want a real apology after you’ve had time to think about what you’ve done.”

“yes ma’am.” I stood up and hung my head in shame, before walking over to the corner to be on time out. At first I started sulking “this is bullshit.” I thought. “I’m 19, my grandma never puts me on time out, even if I did deserve a time out which I don’t. I am allowed to watch South park. it’s not my fault my mom said something different.” time went by and my thoughts shifted. “man, this supper smells really good, she’s so nice for cooking it for me. it sucks that she thinks I lied to her.” more time passed “I guess it was kind of a lie, no one ever told me I was allowed to watch South park and nobody had ever caught me doing it. I’m such a piece of shit for lying to my friend. this is why she’s a grown up and I’m still being treated like a kid.”

“alright kiddo.” Sasha called out. “timeouts over, let’s hear that apology and see if you need to go back in.”

I couldn’t look her in the eye but I spoke with certainty. “I’m sorry I broke your trust by lying to you. It was very immature of me and I know now that I’m nowhere near mature enough to watch South park. I wanna thank you for taking care of me tonight and showing me the level I’m at and what I need to work on.”

“Wow, very good.” she said as she walked up and hugged me. “It’s ok, I know how it must feel being trapped with little kid rules at our age. Unfortunately this means I won’t be able to trust your word in the future. Remember that the next time you wanna lie to seem bigger.”

“Yes ma’am.”

“Now sit down, suppers ready.”

I sat down and looked at the table, it was tacos. They looked good and they were already made. it wasn’t like the white people tacos I was used to. They were sweet with a great many complex spices and flavours. “Wow, these are amazing.” I exclaimed with my mouth full.

she laughed “thank you, my mom taught me how to make them. Your mom didn’t have everything but I substituted for similar stuff. Believe it or not they’re usually better.” she smiled and took another bite.

“I can’t imagine anything tasting better than this.”

The night went on and we made our way back over to the couch. We talked and laughed and I grew comfortable with her again. Eventually the clock reached 9:00 and Sasha pouted “aww sorry kiddo, it’s about time you started getting ready for bed. I’ve been having such a good time hanging with you, but the night’s over.” I stood up and walked to the bathroom and she followed. “Do you wanna try using the toilet before I put you in your diaper for the night?”

“umm yeah I normally do, but I gotta brush my teeth first.”

“Good call, big boy!” she ruffled my hair and I started brushing.

After that I pulled down my trainers, sat on the toilet and peed, then I went to bed. it was only 9:05 so I asked her “it’s 25 minutes till my bedtime, can I have some time to play on my phone before bed?”

“I think you’re forgetting something. we gotta get you in your diaper.”

“Sasha can I please just wear my trainers tonight? I promise I’ll keep them dry.”

“We both know you can’t promise that, lay down.”and lay down I did. She pulled off my training pants and asked “where does your mom keep your diapers?”

“bottom drawer in my dresser.” I said, embarrassed by her cavelear nature about the garment.

She grabbed a diaper and unfolded it. “lift your bumm.” she said and I did. she slid it underneath me and then taped it on nice and even. “good boy.” she said, ruffling my hair again. “Now let’s get you outta that t-shirt and into bed.” She grabbed my shirt and lifted it over my head. I crawled up into bed and she pulled the covers over me. She kissed me on the forehead and said, “goodnight Genie. Maybe we can hang out some time as friends when I’m not babysitting you.”

She walked out and turned the lights off and I called out “WAIT!”

“What is it?”

“Turn on my night light, I’m scared of the dark.” I pointed to the fake rotating plastic fish tank on my dresser.

“ok, kiddo.” She walked over and turned it on before leaving and closing the door.

Chess said:

I am confused as to why an adult 19-year-old university student is subjected to this degrading treatment and why he puts up with it. I would suggest that this be explained.

I think for the most part he’s just immature for his age and he knows on some level he needs to be taken care of. As for why he puts up with it. I think you’ll see in the next chapter why he kinda has to.

Chapter 2:

I woke up the next morning feeling soft and happy. It had been nice catching up with an old friend, even in that context. I rolled over, grabbed my phone and saw I had a Facebook message.

it was from Sasha “Hey Gene, I forgot we were friends on Facebook, we should text more! I’ll see you later today!”

“Why would I see her later today?” I wondered. I scrolled on Instagram for a while before I rolled out of bed. When I stood up my diaper was sagging a lot. “Crap, this thing’s about to leak.” I walked out to the kitchen carefully to get my mom.

“Good morning Gene! How was your night with Sasha?”

“oh, it was good we had a lot of fun and-”

“Why aren’t you wearing any pants? I told you you can’t just wear a diaper around the house, you’re not a toddler anymore." She walked up to me. “Look how wet you are, this thing’s about to leak, were you even going to tell me?”

“I.” I got out one word before Mom grabbed my wrist and pulled me to my bedroom. I filled her in on the night while she changed me into some clean training pants.

We made our way back out to the kitchen and my mom made breakfast. Bacon, eggs and toast. “I’m glad you like her.” Mom said, “We talked last night and since Sasha goes to the same university as you and you live so close she’s gonna drive you to school in the morning instead of me wasting gas!”

“Oh that’ll be fun. But I wonder if we have the same class schedule.”

“You’ll have to work that out with her. I imagine she’ll just bring you in intime for her first class of the day. You’ll have to ask if you need earlier.”

“Yeah, we can talk about it on the ride. my first class today isn’t until 2pm so I’ll probably be after her first.”

“Just make sure to check in with her in between her classes, ok?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, I’ve always hated sending you there without any supervision. I mentioned that to Sasha and she offered to keep sort of a loose eye on you. it won’t be super strict. Just making sure you’re safe, dry and following the rules.”

This was hard to hear. University had been my one bastion of freedom and independence. I had friends there and did secret hangouts at their dorms between classes. Now with my babysitter around I likely won’t have that freedom.

“I even gave her your debit card, that way she can buy you lunch instead of me having to pack you one!”

“WHAT!?” I shouted, “You gave my debit card to someone else!? Listen Mom it’s bad enough I’m not allowed to control my own bank account, but this is just reckless! She could rob me blind! I’ve got all my student loan money in there!”

She barely acknowledged what I said “Mind the tone, little boy, I won’t be disrespected in my own house. Go take a shower and get ready, she’s picking you up in an hour.”

I grumbled “this is so dumb.” under my breath and did what I was told. I showered, brushed my teeth, did my hair up nice and picked a good outfit; cargo shorts and a forest green t-shirt. The cargo shorts were big and hid my training pants well. No one at the university knows I’m still in training pants.

I left the house and stood outside while my mom watched from the window. Eventually Sasha pulled up and I climbed in.

“Hey Gene, how are things this morning?” she asked.

“Umm, they’re ok.” I had to think, I didn’t want to offend her.

“Are you a little uncomfortable that I’m gonna be in charge of you at university now?” she asked genuinely concerned.

“I don’t know, maybe a little.” I couldn’t look at her.

she put her hand on my shoulder “Tell you what. I’ve got classes, you’ve got classes. when we’re in those we’ll mind our own business. but when we’re both out of class we’ll spend time together and we can tell them we’re just hanging out as friends.” she smiled.

“Really you wouldn’t mind hiding it.”

“I understand it’s embarrassing and as long as you behave and listen when I ask you to do something it can stay a secret.”

“Thank you ma’am.”

“at university I’ll be Sasha, save ma’am for home.”

We drove to the university and explained our schedules to each other and when we got there we climbed outta the car and went our separate ways. Sasha to her classes, me to my friends’ dorm.

I knocked on the door and Donny opened up in his robe looking exhausted. “Why the hell are you here so early?”

“it’s 10am.”

“I know dude. no class till 2pm tho so I stayed up till 2am last night.”

“That must’ve been fun.”

“yeah I drank like a truck load though so if you wanna chill here just be quiet.”

“ok.” I said as I walked and sat on a bean bag. He turned on the tv and threw the remote at me before collapsing on the bed so hard he bounced a little. I began to think “It’d be so cool to be able to drink and party with my peers. Look at him so tired out I bet last night was so fun for him.”

Over the couple hours Donny got up, he shaved, showered and put on real clothes. We joked around, played some Mario kart and actually felt pretty normal until at 12 o’clock I got a text from Sasha

“It’s 12. I don’t have class now. meet me at the main entrance, I’ll buy you lunch.”

“hhh.” I sighed quietly and Donny noticed.

“What’s wrong?”

I had to think of a lie fast. “I have to go meet this girl from my neighborhood for lunch.”

“Oh for real? good on you buddy. I didn’t know you were good with the ladies like that.”

“no no no. She’s just a friend.”

“Riiight, just a friend.” he didn’t believe me. “and does this just a friend go to our university?”

“Uhh, yeah she does. She was the one who drove me here this morning. She had morning classes.”

“Tight, I’ll come with you then. I’m always looking for more fine women in my life.”

“uhh, yeah you can come.” I cringed at the thought of getting discovered, but I really did want Donny to meet my new friend.

We walked over to the front entrance and I explained about how she was a childhood friend and we’ve just started hanging out again after a couple years apart.

“Hi Genie!” She ran over and hugged me. “How’s your day been so far?”

“umm, good we’ve just been chilling at Donny’s dorm.” I pointed my thumb at Donny.”

“oh, hi, nice to meet you.” Sasha said as she held her hand.

Donny shook her hand and said. “Wow, you’re even prettier than Gene said you were.”

“awww, Genie, you said I was pretty!” She poked my tummy. “You’re so sweet.”

“ah, yeah, I mean, you’re stunning. you really are.” I was nervous but I felt like that was ok to say.

she put her hand on my shoulder and whispered in my ear. “Let’s go to the bathroom.”

“uh, yeah ok!” my voice cracked, I didn’t think she’d be this forward. wanting to hook up after just two compliments. Then again I’ve never done this before so maybe it is that easy. I turned to Donny “umm Donny, me and Sasha are gonna be right back. gonna hit the can just wait here ok?”

Donny looked a little bit proud and a little bit baffled. “Yeah man, go ahead, I’ll wait here.”

Sasha and I went to the disabled and family bathroom and she locked the door. She got down on her knees in front of me, my heart pounding with excitement and fear and I said “wait I’ve never done this before.”

Sasha looked up “What, got your training pants checked?”

“I uh, what?”

“I don’t know what you think this is.” She unbuckled my belt and pulled down my shorts. “I’m just making sure you’re still dry.” she growled the front and back of my trainers then pulled my shorts back up. “You did a good job staying dry, but you’re gonna have to do a lot more than that if you wanna hook up with me.” she smiled teasingly as she unlocked the door and walked out.

I stood there letting my nerves die down. I thought this was a huge moment for me but it was just another in a long line of humiliations. At Least nobody saw it. I walked out and saw Sasha talking to Donny. They were talking about the art history class they both shared. The vibe seemed to flow well between them.

“There’s my man!” Donny said as he held out his hand for a high five. “ya didn’t last long, but hey no one’s that good their first time.”

Sasha got a look on her face like she was worried and didn’t know what to say. I can only assume I had the same look.

Donny spoke again. “Did something go wrong? Did you really mess up or something?”

Sasha had a plan. “I think we weren’t planning on it being this easy to figure out.” she grabbed his arm and said real low. “can you not tell anyone I gave Genie a blow job in the bathroom, I’m a little embarrassed.”

“oh, oh yeah, not a problem, I can keep a secret.”

She was lying and saying we did do something, a strange idea, but it was better than the alternative.

Donny rubbed the back of his head, smiled and changed the subject. “Anyway, you guys said we were getting food? I haven’t eaten all day!” with that we walked off to dairy queen.

When we arrived Sasha asked me what I wanted and I told her. she went up and ordered for.

Yo, dude, is she paying for you?” Donny elbowed me gently. “You’ve got this girl wrapped around your finger.” He didn’t know it was just the opposite. She used my card to pay for both mine and her meal then she walked back over with the receipt.

We went and grabbed a seat at a booth while Donny placed his order. Sasha asked me to sit on her side. “ok so I know you don’t have a class until 2 and I’ve got one at the same time. so I can watch you until then. after that class we’ll meet up again until next class, got it?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“Now about the blow job thing with Donny, that’s embarrassing, so we’ve gotta find a better system for me to check you.”

“Can’t he just keep thinking we’re…” I paused “being intimate.”

“I’ll put it this way, if it happens again Donny finds out everything. the babysitting, the training pants, the bedtime, even the nightlight.”

“Yes ma’am, we’ll find another way.” I said, disappointedly.

Donny came up and sat across from us. “So how long has this whole thing been going on?”

“What whole thing?” I asked.

“Ya know in the bathroom.”

Sasha spoke up “the thing in the bathroom was a one time thing, no big deal.”

I made an embarrassed face to imply something was awkward about it.

“Wow so it was your guy’s first time doing anything together and you went straight for a blow job, huh?” he chuckled. ya know most people start with a makeout.”

“We kissed once.” Sasha said.

“oh, well that’s good, a little bit of warm up.” there was an awkward silence for a while then Donny spoke again. “If you two like each other so much, why don’t you get together? a real romantic build up could be great for you two.”

“No.” Sasha said, quickly and sternly

The food came and we ate in silence. things felt awkward for a while but eventually after we left and sat at a picnic table nearby we got talking again.

“Oh yeah! I fuckin love board games!” Donny said.

“Oh yeah, what’s your favourite?” Sasha asked.

“Gotta be Monopoly! Everybody else hates it, but I love it! so many good memories tied up in that game.”

“Ya know, I was at the thrift store down the road and they had like a bunch of copies of those novelty Monopoly games, the Star wars, the Canada, the big Bang theory.”

“oh, tight, for real?” we should go there sometime and check em out!”

“We’ve still got a little over an hour, we can probably do it now!”

“Hell yeah! Let’s go!”

before I knew it we were walking again. I didn’t know how fun going to a store would be because I don’t have any money, but maybe if I see something I like I can ask Sasha to buy it for me.

Chess said:

I’m sorry, but I still don’t get it. Why doesn’t he report his mom for stealing his debit card and leave home?

I don’t know. I don’t think most people would call the police on their own mom. I’m just coming up with this now but, he doesn’t drive so he doesn’t have ID to prove himself to the bank so his mom is the only one who can really run the account. He’s wrapped up tight in red tape and she has his birth certificate too so he can’t just get a provincial ID without her permission.

Fiammaverde said:

While I agree there are some plausibility issues, it’s also nicely paced and with good dialogue lines.
A bit like a good dream, that seems real as long as you ignore the premises.

thank you! yeah. later on I’m planning on having an ark where he tries to escape. we’ll build a little more on why he stays then

stinkape said:

I’m enjoying the mystery of it all , why Gene is the way he is and why Sasha would even shan’t to babysit him ?
She sounds very sexy and Genes mom sounds like a bit of a dominatrics , in the way that she treats Gene .
He may not know it but he sounds to be very lucky.

gonna have a lot of fun with these story lines! I’ve got a lot of arks planned and I’m always coming up with new ones! I’m glad you’re enjoying it! and yes I love domineering women!

Chapter 3:

We strolled up to the thrift shop laughing up a storm. Donny busted out his signature story about the time he ate so many edibles he locked himself in the trunk of his car for 2 days. It gets a big laugh every time.

“So- teh ha where did you pee in all that time?” Sasha asked, through laughter.

“Where else? I picked a corner.”

Sasha bent over in hysterics. “YOU PICKED AH haha CORNEeEeeR?!?

I opened the glass door and went in first. The vibe was quiet so we had to pretend we weren’t just having a laugh riot. “Wow, it’s got…” I paused to think “a smell.”

“You would know about smells.” Donny quipped and Sasha tried very hard not to laugh.

“Why would he know about smells, Donny?”

“oh this guy farts like a train wreck. I swear sometimes he blasts ass and you can smell it an hour later.” He patted me on the back, “Like buddy maybe you gotta wipe.”

We wandered around the store looking first at the clothes. I found a cool leather jacket and it looked to be just my size. “Hey, Sash, are we allowed to try stuff on here.”

“Yeah, there’s no changing room though, so just outer clothes.”

I slid on the jacket and it was magnificent. It hugged my shoulders and had a wool interior. It even had pockets on the inside as well. “I could keep so much nonsense in here!” I exclaimed.

“You should get it, you look good in it!” Shasha smiled.

“Yeah, that shit is fire on you, no joke.” Donny agreed.

I looked at the price tag. “It’s only $12. Can I get it?” I asked Sasha.

“Yeah, I think you’ve got money for that.” Sasha smiled and hugged me tightly, before slapping my arms to straighten out the jacket. “Wait till your mom sees you in it. You look like a real man!” She hustled off and kept looking for herself.

I tried to follow, but Donny grabbed my elbow and pulled me back. “What was that back there, where you asked her permission to get that jacket? What, is she your accountant or something?”

“Ah, no man, it’s fine, just like money stuff. She’s better with numbers and stuff so like.” I was nervous and had no idea how to explain.

“So she’s like helping you budget. Is that why she bought your food at the dairy queen?”

“Uhh, yeah, she uh, she bought it with my debit card.”

“You let this bitch have your debit card?” He was genuinely shocked.

“Hey man she’s not a…” I’m not allowed to swear “B-word.”

“I know man, and she seems really nice, but that’s risky as hell and that money’s not insured. How well do you know this girl? You say she’s your childhood friend, but like do you really know her?”

“Yeah, I don’t know man. It just is the way it is.”

Sasha walked back up to us. “Hey guys! Why didn’t you follow me?”

“We were just talking, guy stuff.” Donny seemed to trust Sasha just a little bit less. “So where are those Monopoly games?”

“Oh! in the back!” She grabbed Donny’s hand and pulled him to the back of the store and I followed.

We joked around more about how silly all these versions of monopoly and other board games were.

“What do you even do in Big Bang Theory Clue, figure out who stole Amy’s Microscope?” I joked.

we all laughed, Donny grabbed a partially ripped box of Star Wars Monopoly and we headed to the front. I removed my jacket and handed it to Sasha so she could pay. Sasha turned around and grabbed a Jade ring off the display rack and tried it on. “Perfect.” She mumbled. She put them down on the counter and paid for them in one go, using my debit card.

Donny looked at me with a face that was asking if I wanted him to say something, I winced because I didn’t know. “Hey,” he grabbed Sasha’s shoulder. “Did you just pay for that ring with Gene’s debit card?”

“Oh, uh, yeah. Yeah I did.” She said it as if she didn’t even believe it was wrong.

“You didn’t even ask. Like Genie” He gestured over to me. “Genie, are you ok with that?”

“Umm, I don’t know.” I could feel myself getting very sweaty. “I don’t have a lot of money, so it’d be nice if maybe you asked before buying yourself things.”

“Oh, you want me to ask to spend YOUR money?” she taunted. “The money that YOU have control of?” She turned to walk outta the store. “By all means, shut your wallet, I’ll keep it shut for you.” She did a dirty smirk and left, only to stand outside of course, because she was still babysitting me.

“Dude, what the fuck.” Donny said, placing his hand on my shoulder. “What does she have on you that you can’t just take your wallet back. I mean, fuck I hate cops, but like call the cops man. she can’t do that to you.”

“I-I can’t.” I couldn’t look him in the eye.

“Why, what’s wrong, is she black mailing you?”

“No it’s, it’s just complicated.”

“Hey man, I’m here for you. I’m a smart guy, you know that. Whatever you got going on, I promise I can help you out of it.”

I tried as hard as I could not to cry, Donny had always been such a genuine friend to me. “It’s my mom. My mom gave Sasha my debit card because she thinks I’m not responsible enough to handle my own money. Sasha’s in charge of what I can and can’t buy and when it comes to dealing with my mom, standing up for myself always makes things worse.”

“Hey, man. I think standing up for yourself is the only way you’re gonna get outta this.” He pulled me in for a hug “and I want you to know that it’s messed up that your mother said you’re irresponsible. You’re the most reasonable, buttoned up, mature, level headed friend I have. You don’t even drink! Man whatever you need from me, place to stay, money to get new stuff, even legal help, my cousins a lawyer he does pro bono stuff for fucked up cases like these all the time. You gotta get this stuff settled.”

“Thank you, thank you for saying that.”

“You know I only say what I mean.”

We walked outside slowly and with stone faces. “Alright kiddo.” Sasha smiled. “We should probably head back to the university.” She ruffled my hair and smiled extra wide. “We’ve got class in 15 minutes.”

“Oh shi-it.” I said, pausing to think whether I wanted to break that seal. Sasha glared at me and Donny gave a big smile. We all sorta half jogged in order to get to class on time. Donny and I sat next to each other, listening to the lecture and writing notes back and forth to formulate a plan…

I only had two classes that day, the final one ending at 6. They were pressed against each other time wise. I walked out to the parking lot and saw Sasha there.

Donny spoke from behind “Hey good luck with her.”

“Thanks man.” I said.

I walked over and she smiled at me “Hey, kiddo, are you ready to go home?” She asked.

“You wouldn’t believe how ready.”

We climbed in her car and she turned on some music. It was some dumb bubble gum pop stuff, catchy, but ultimately vapid. She was dancing in her seat as she drove, waving her finger around, she looked to be having the time of her life.

“She’s so beautiful.” I thought to myself. “Maybe in another timeline where I don’t need supervision, she could have been my girlfriend. When she reprimanded me today I felt so small and powerless, but she also helped me hide my secret today. I honestly don’t know how to feel about her. All I know is I want my freedom, I can’t help but doubt if I’m truly worthy of it.”

We got to a stoplight and she turned down the music. “So about today, I know things are awkward because I had to lay down the law in front of your friend. I know you know better than to make a fuss like that. You were so good for me the first night. So why don’t we forget today, I won’t even tell your mom you swore and tomorrow when we do it all again, we can go back to being friends.” She put her hand on my thigh. “Don’t forget, back when we were both kids, how good a friends we were.”

“Yeah, ok and thanks for not telling my mom. She would’ve washed my mouth out with soap.”

“Now can you be a big boy and apologize to me for making a fuss in the store and saying I can’t use your…” She paused, “Your mom’s money.”

“Yes ma’am.” I swallowed my pride and said “I’m sorry I made a fuss in the store and said you couldn’t use my-” I struggled to get it out, “mom’s money.”

“and what have you learned?”

“I learned that it’s not my money to control and I’m too immature to make financial decisions for myself.”

“Good boy!” she said as she ruffled my hair. “Financial is such a big word!”

I turned away, cringing at her talking down to me like that.

I felt her reach her hand down my shorts and squeeze the front of my training pants. “You even stayed dry all day too! That’s brownie points!” I refused to react and eventually she spoke up again. “Your mom’s got a work thing tomorrow so I’ll be over in the early morning to watch you. Maybe as a reward for staying dry, I’ll make you a nice breakfast. You remember how good my tacos were, you don’t even know what I can pull off with breakfast food!”

We got to my place and she pulled in the driveway. “Thanks for the ride.” I said as I climbed out of the car.

“Thanks for coming with me, sweetheart. You have a good night!” She smiled and waved all happy and I walked indoors.

Chapter 4:

The rest of the night was normal. I did the class reading, watched some YouTube and my mom put me in a diaper and silk pajamas. I layed in bed looking up at the ceiling. I had too much to think about to possibly go to sleep. Not to mention the sooner I slept the sooner I woke up to Sasha babysitting me again.

I thought about back when I was 9, Sasha and I went to the same daycare. All the other kids I was friends with were deemed by their parents to be old enough to stay home alone. I asked my mom if I could also try staying home alone and she said no. Eventually when I was 12 I realized I was the oldest kid at daycare so I begged her not to make me go anymore so she asked my Grandmother to start babysitting me.

Grandma was so nice and she wasn’t as strict as my mom. I was still having a lot of accidents back then, wearing pull-ups all day and night. Grandma never made me feel bad about it. I began to tear up. Even when my night time accidents got too big and I had to switch to adult diapers she never judged me. She let me play on her office computer, watch whatever I wanted. Until I got to university, Grandma’s house was the closest to normalcy I had ever felt.

The thing about comfort like that is you just get used to things. One at a time, you don’t notice them piling on and then one day your foundation gets removed and you realize your position in life is… “absolutely awful.” I said out loud.

I rolled over and put my phone on the charging dock before rolling back to think.

My mom was always strict with me. I think she was worried about my safety and development. I’ve always been school smart, but I failed to hit a lot of the maturity and social milestones that most kids hit. If I hit them at all I was late.

I remember when I was 14 she finally trusted me to stay home alone on a trial basis. Just one day to see how I did. I tried to deep fry some frozen pierogies and started a grease fire. I called the fire department and I only got burned a little on my forearm. The cabinets above the stove had to be replaced too. That’s why I’m not allowed in the kitchen. The severe failure of that first test really instilled what my mom already knew. I was immature and I’ll probably always be that way.

“hhh.” I sighed. I better get some sleep. I rolled over and closed my eyes.

I woke up in the morning and grabbed my phone from the dock. It was 6am. I decided to scroll on Instagram for a while before getting out of bed. My diaper was only slightly wet, I had tossed and turned all night so I had my wits about me for most of it.

I walked out to the kitchen and saw Sasha there. “Oh hi, baby boy!” She came up and hugged me. “How’s your diaper?” She asked and I was started as she grabbed it right away, mushing it around. “Feels like somebody’s wet.”

“Uh yeah, I just was just gonna come tell you.”

“Ok, good job then. Come on, let’s get you changed!” She grabbed my wrist and pulled me down the hallway with a big smile on her face. She pulled down my pants and said “Lay down on the bed please!” I did as I was told and she asked “Genie, does your mother usually change you into a fresh diaper before your shower in the morning or do you go straight into a pair of training pants?”

“She puts me in training pants.”

“oh, ok.” she smiled and shrugged “I wonder if that leads to a lot of laundry? I’ll wipe you off extra good so that these training pants can be the ones you wear for the day.” She grabbed some wipes from the drawer and untaped my diaper. She began wiping every inch of my down stairs and I was once again grateful to feel the touch of such a beautiful woman down there. She removed the diaper from underneath me and slid the training pants up my legs, these ones had a pokéball pattern with red on top and white on the bottom. A variety of pokémon graced the white part. It was one of my favourite pairs, I love pomémon and they’re relatively thin compared to my other pairs. “Lift your bumm.” she said and I did. She slid the training pants all the way onto me and then hugged me while I was still laying down. “Good job Genie. You’re being such a good boy this morning.”

“Thank you, Mama.” I flailed my arms, a slip of the tongue was all it was. “Sorry, sorry! I meant to say ma’am!”

Sasha tilted her head and swooned “Awww, that’s so cute! You just called me Mama.” She brushed my hair back with her hand as I blushed and tried to hide my face. “it’s ok kiddo, it must be different having someone else change your diaper. You just got a little confused.”

“I misspoke, that’s all.”

“ok, well stand up “She grabbed my hands and tugged me to my feet “and we’ll go get you some breakfast… Mama’s Boy.” She smirked and then skipped out to the kitchen.

There I stood in my exposed training pants and silk pajama shirt. “This is so humiliating.” I thought as I walked out to the kitchen.

“It’s gonna be second, ok kiddo? She was digging out cooking stuff. “Why don’t you go watch something age appropriate on tv while I cook.”

“Actually I wanna take a shower, while I wait, get ready for the day.”

“Oh alright, guess I really didn’t need to clean you that much, but it looked like you enjoyed it.”

I blushed and hid my face. “Was it really that obvious?” I asked.

“it was practically painted all over your face. I understand though. You may have the mind of a child, but your body is very much adult. It must be confusing having a woman your own age touch you there.”

“This is too embarrassing, I’m just gonna go.”

“And you can shower on your own right? You don’t need help or changed into a little swimmers.” She asked, earnestly.

“No, I only wear little swimmers in the bath. Showers are fine because it all goes down the drain.” With that I walked into the bathroom and closed the door. I unbuttoned my shirt and threw it on the floor. I walked over to the toilet and pulled down my training pants, then I sat down to pee. After that I kicked off my training pants. I got up, stepped in the shower and turned on some nice hit water. Showering felt nice. It was a peaceful time to decompress, it was early, but I had already been through a lot. I washed all over my body, singing and not thinking. When I was done I stepped out, moisturized my skin and put my hair up. A while ago I started keeping my products in the bathroom for a little bit of private time out of padding. If no one knew it didn’t matter. I noticed some stubble growing in so I shaved it close, my beard is patchy and curly, looks like an Italian man’s arms when I grow it out.

Finally all my grooming was done so I knew it had to be done. I stepped back into my training pants and pulled them up. I left the bathroom as quietly as possible, but Sasha spotted me anyway. “Gene, come sit.” She called, “I made Sinangag!”

I turned around and walked to the kitchen “What’s that?”

“It’s a popular breakfast in the Philippines!” She smiled and placed a bowl on the table.

I walked over and sat down. “I’ve never had Rice for breakfast before.”

“It’s pretty common in most of Asia and some of Africa.”

“Your mom’s from the Philippines, right?”

“Yeah, she used to make this for me.” She looked away in a moment of nostalgia.

I tried a bite “OH MY GOD, it’s delicious!” I exclaimed, while shoveling another spoonful in my mouth. “and there’s chicken in it too! with egg on top, that’s two proteins, so we can pretend it’s healthy!” I smiled.

“Overall, it’s not too bad. You don’t keep a figure like mine eating nothing but junk food.”

I kept talking with my mouth full. “Well if eating this’ll make me look as good as you sign me up!”

She chuckled and rubbed my back a little. Very quickly I finished eating and was sad to see it over. I went to my bedroom to get dressed. I picked out a Navy Blue Charmander shirt to match the Pokémon on my training pants and some dark acid wash jeans. I put them on and walked back out to the living room.

I saw Sasha sitting on the couch, scrolling on her phone. “Hey, since I cooked, can you do the dishes?”

“Oh yeah, sure! Not a big cost for such a fantastic meal.” I really didn’t mind at all, I was excited that she asked me in a way that sounded like I could’ve said no. I did the best job I could, I even cleaned the pan instead of leaving it to soak like I do when my mom tells me to clean the dishes.

“Great job, Genie.” Sasha said as she patted my bumm. “All these dishes are squeaky clean!” she stood on her tippy toes and kissed the left side of my chin. “Big boys get big kisses!” she complimented. “Welp, you should get your backpack. We gotta head out soon to get to my first class.”

“ok.” I went to my room and got the bag, then we went out to the car.

“Hey by the way.” Sasha said. “There’s a puppy parade going on all day today, at the university, if you wanna go see it.”

“Oh, yeah! I love dogs! What’s a puppy parade? like they’re driving them around on floats?”

“No, you silly.” She gently elbowed me. “They bring in all the dogs from shelters so people can meet them and adopt them!” She smiled bright like a rainbow.”

“Yeah that sounds super fun!” I replied. Sasha checked my training pants one more time, reaching down my pants and squeezing the front and after that we were off.

Fiammaverde said:

I have ambivalent feelings for Sasha. On one side, she’s a manipulative minx, wisely mixing up carrot and stick so to keep Genie wrapped around her finger.
On the other, she does go the extra mile needed to help Genie stay comfortable and, in the long run, become more confident in himself.

exactly, she’s a sweetheart with a dirty manipulative side and she has no problem changing on a dime. She loves to help Gene, but she also loves free stuff and reminding little boys just how little they are!

Chapter 5:

We arrived at the university and climbed outta the car. We began to walk towards the building and saw trucks and men with hard hats setting up pens and stages.

“Here, hold my hand.” Sasha said as she held hers out.

“why, do I have to hold your hand?”

“I just want you to be safe!” she smiled “We’re walking through a construction zone.”

It was really far too tame to require that kind of precaution, but I wasn’t gonna turn down an opportunity to hold a pretty girl’s hand. “ok.” I said, pretending it was a compromise.

Her hand was silky smooth and warm and now standing closer to her I realized she smelled like nice flowers. For just a moment I felt like the luckiest guy in the world.

We walked into the building and continued holding hands all the way to my classroom. Donny was waiting outside, leaning against a wall. “Wow, you’re holding hands now. You sure you’re not dating?”

“Awww, nooo, groooss.” she said, only half joking. She let go of my hand and brushed my hair around. “He’s like a little brother to me, I can’t even imagine.”

“oh? But you sucked his dick yesterday?”

We both looked at eachother, panic in our eyes. “Right I did, but, I…” Sasha tried to think of something.

I stepped in “We decided to pretend it didn’t happen yesterday, because I came too quickly. It was my first time and it was embarrassing for both of us.”

“o-k.” Donny paused and squinted his eyes, I couldn’t tell if he didn’t believe us or wasn’t following the lie. “Anyway, do you got the USB for the presentation? We got bumped up cuz bitch ass Caroline has the flu, AGAIN.”

“Aw shit, I’m still not finished my portion!”

“Watch it!” Sasha said with a sharp tone

Donny looked perplexed. “Alright, well, go to the computer lab, finish it quick. Throw any old crap together and get it to me by 9:45, that’s when we go up.”

“Alright, I ran off to the computer lab and lost Sasha somewhere along the way. I plugged the USB in and got to work.

Minutes passed of me with my rushed mind until Sasha walked in with a bucket of water. “Alright, punishment time, little boy.”

“What, what do you mean? I gotta get work done.”

“You said yesterday that when your mom hears you swearing she washes your mouth out with soap.

I stopped typing and looked her in the eye, pleading “No please Sasha, I’ll be good. I won’t swear again, I promise.”

“Oh I know you won’t, I’m gonna make sure of that.” She set the bucket on the floor and pulled the wet bar of soap out. “Down on your knees over the bucket, little boy.”

“Someone will see us. This is messed up, even for you.”

“You think I’m an amateur,” she grabbed my chin and directed me to look her in the eyes as she got really close and whispered “I locked the door.” Out of nowhere she grabbed me by my hair and pulled me down on the floor. “Now open your mouth or this becomes a spanking!” she said sternly and confidently.

I opened my mouth and she slid the bar in. I pulled back at the bitterness, but she held my head in place as she began to scrub. I felt confusingly turned on by having a beautiful woman’s fingers in my mouth. The soap tasted horrible and I tried to spit out the suds into the bucket, but she kept making more. I was moaning and gurgling the whole time, eventually I teared up and she dropped the soap into the bucket.

She brushed my hair back with her other hand. “There, now are you gonna swear again?”

“No, no I promise.” I cried.

“Good boy.” She kissed me on the cheek and smiled as she walked away with the bucket. I caught my breath and tried to get back to work, but I couldn’t focus. The time came when I had to deliver the project so I saved and left.

When I got to the room, I had soap stains on my shirt and it was obvious I had been crying.

“Yo, what happened to you?” Donny asked.

“I’m sorry,” I gulped, “I couldn’t finish the project.”

“Yeah, it’s…” Donny paused. “It’s ok.” He patted my back.

When it was time for the presentation and I got up, he put in the USB and opened it up. His section went off without a hitch. but when mine showed up, vast swaths of information was either wrong or missing and the second last slide was just a white screen that said “I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry”

We sat back down and the professor walked over to us. “So umm, what the hell was that?”

“Don’t punish Donny for that. I was responsible for the back half, I botched it.” I begged.

“Listen, I can tell you put a lot of effort in.” She looked at Donny “But Gene I know you can do better, so I’m gonna grade you both separately.”

I smiled, “Thank you.”

“Donny you get 96%, you did the best you could.” She looked at me “Gene, 42. At Least you had that cool fact about beekeeping I didn’t know.”

“Thank you ma’am!” I called out as she walked away.

“That’s a terrible grade, you know that, right?” Donny asked.

“Yeah, I’m just glad she didn’t punish you.”

15 minutes later, class was over and we went out to the main entry. Sasha was waiting for us. “Hey boys!” She waved with a big smile on her face as she ran over. “Are you ready to see some puppies!?” she asked, with more enthusiasm than most could muster.

“Hell yeah!” Donny shouted as he galloped off, outside. I tried to follow but was held back.

“Hold up little one, you smell like pee.” She reached her hand down my pants and squeezed the front of my training pants. “Yep, just a little bit wet. Did you have an accident during our little punishment this morning?”

I thought back and realized I did. “Yeah.” I put my head down ashamed.

“Alright, come on, I didn’t wanna go here again, but disabled washroom now.” She pulled me in by the sleeve of my shirt and pulled down my pants. “So much for pokémon training, you’re failing at potty training.” I tried not to cry and she unzipped my book bag and took out my spare pair of training pants and some wipes. She opened up the changing station. “Alright get on.”

“Can that thing support me?”

“Yeah, I read it, it’s extra strong for disabled adults.” I hopped up on it and laid down. She told me to lift my bumm and she tugged off my wet trainers. She wiped me down good and sprayed some of her own Cherry Blossom body spray on my genitals “Don’t want a pee smell.” she said. I winced because the spray stung a little. She pulled a new pair of training pants up on me then put my wet ones in a tied up plastic bag with the wipes. She put the bag at the bottom of my book bag before helping me off the platform and back into my jeans. “Good boy.” She said, patting my head. “You always behave so well during changes.

We walked out of the bathroom and there waiting for us was Donny. “So, another together bathroom visit?”

Sasha and I looked at eachother, her face looked grim and I could feel a sickening sensation. We both knew what had to happen now.

“Please, let me tell him.” I pleaded, “It’s better if it comes from me.”

“No.” She grabbed my wrists. “The more I think about it, you’ve been through enough today, so let me talk.” She turned to Donny and spoke in a blosé voice “Fine you caught us, we’re dating.”

My heart legitimately stopped for a second, I couldn’t believe she was falling on this sword for me.

Sasha spoke again. “Just don’t tell his mom, ok. She’s like, Uber Christian so he’s not supposed to be like dating or having sex before marriage.”

Donny looked at me and took a second to process. “I guess that makes sense. I’ve only met your mom a couple times in the parking lot, but she was crazy strict.” He walked over and patted my shoulder. “Hey, I won’t tell a soul.” He turned to Sasha “Are you gonna give him back his debit card?”

“No, that’s important. It’s kinda our excuse for spending time together.” She lied again.

“Alright.” He turned to me. “Well I’m glad you’re finally moving up in the world. First girlfriend, first blowjob, who knows what’s next.” He started walking out towards the front entrance “Now can we finally go look at some FUCKING DOGS!”

We walked with him but a little ways back and I whispered “So what, we’re just gonna tell people we’re dating?”

“Yeah, I guess so. Just a moment of empathy ya know. We were friends, Genie, and you were always so sweet to me. I just” she stopped to think” couldn’t bring myself to destroy your reputation.”

“Thank you.” I said and we joined hands as we went through the door to finally see the puppy parade.

Chapter 6:

I stepped out and blinked from the sun and as my vision cleared I saw we were surrounded by many pens with puppies and dogs of all ages. We walked in and saw the pens were marked with signs saying either “Safe to pet” “will bite” “I’m nervous but I’m nice” or “Enter and play with me”

Sasha spotted these adorable little Weiner dogs labeled safe to pet “OO! We gotta go pet them!” She jumped over and bent over the pen.

“Wow, she has a fantastic ass.” I thought to myself as she bent over in her short jean shorts. I knew it was inappropriate to stare for long and I did want to pet the dogs so I went up and bent over with her. We petted them, played with them, Scratched the scruff on their faces.

Eventually we had to go and let somebody else have a turn, so we walked down the line and saw the “Enter and play with me” pen.

“OH! Let’s go in there!” I said, grabbing Sasha’s elbow and pulling her over.

There were 5 dogs in there. All grown, all very happy to be getting so much attention. Two Border Collies, a Black lab, a Husky and an Aussie Shepherd. The Pen was big so the dogs would have lots of room to run. It used up most of the grassy area, but it allowed people to play fetch with the dogs.

I picked up a slobber covered tennis ball and got a border collie’s attention, I waved it around a little to get the dog excited, then I threw it all the way to the other end of the pen. The border Collie ran so fast and then brought it back fast too. We played a few rounds while Sasha and Donny showered an overheating Husky with love and belly rubs and a soft ice pack that they moved around.

Eventually the border collie jumped up on me and I got down to its level to pet it and give it scritches.

“You two have a good energy together.” a obese curly haired, middle aged woman called out from outside the pen. She wore a shirt with the logo of the Shelter on it. “Are you thinking about adopting?”

“Oh, I don’t know. I still live with my mom and she doesn’t really like dogs.”

“Oh that’s a shame. Lil Jack O’Lantern is such a good little helper.” The woman walked into the pen and knelt down to pet the dog. “He used to be a service dog for an old man who couldn’t move much. Unfortunately he died last year and the old man’s family just gave old jack to us a month ago. Jack’s a sweetheart, he deserves to be with a family. You never know your mom might like him!” She smiled up at me.

“Sasha!” I called over to her, “I wanna adopt this dog.”

“You wanna adopt a dog?”

“Yeah, this lady here was telling me the saddest story about how he’s been alone since his owner died and he’s the sweetest most helpful little thing.”

“Now does that seem responsible, Genie?”

“Umm sorta, it’s definitely the nice thing to do.”

“Is it the nice thing to do? Do you have money to feed it, stuff to take care of it and will your mom even let it in the house?”

“I guess not.” I looked down, sad.

“So I guess you know the answer.”

“I’m sorry little buddy.” I bent over and scratched his head, then I got down on my knees and hugged him. I guess this is a one time thing. I’m gonna miss you.”

The dog didn’t understand, it was just happy to be hugged and petted.

“Come on Genie, let’s keep moving.” Sasha said, as she pulled me by my armpits up to my feet. with that we left and I waved goodbye to the dog I wasn’t mature enough to adopt.

We walked a little further and saw they were selling Slush Puppies, Hush Puppies and Hot Dogs to raise money for the shelter. “Can you get me some Hush puppies please, Sasha.” I asked.

“Ok, it’s for a good cause.” She said with a big smile on her face. “I’m also gonna get a slushie to cool off. We can share it if you want.”

“Yeah that sounds good!”

She poured the slushie and asked the guy at the stand for some hush puppies. He scooped them into a cardboard holder and put some maple syrup in a dipping container. She tapped my card and I cringed a lot at the $16 price of it all.

The Hush puppies were soft and warm and tasted amazing. Sasha drank from the slushie a couple times before leaning it over to me “Only one straw.” I thought to myself. “Swapping spit is a whole new level of intimacy. We’ve kissed before but that was years ago. Maybe I’m working my way up to being her real boyfriend.”

“You gonna drink some?” She asked, I realized I took too long thinking and I shoved my head right in, taking two big sucks. It was pretty good, but you know, just an average slushie.

We kept walking over to the section with pens that said “Warning will bite.” Most of the pens were solo with one dog only, but the ones who were together were cute to look at. They were cuddling with each other so I guess maybe they didn’t like humans.

“Now remember Genie, don’t stick your hand in this one. The sign says they’re dangerous.” Sasha warned.

“Yeah, I can read.” I snarcked back.

“Hey, cool it with the sass, kiddo. I’m just trying to keep you safe.”

“What the fuck, kiddo?” Donny was weirded out.

“Yea, I’m talking down to him because he’s being UNGRATEFUL.” Sasha replied, making sure it was loud enough for me to hear.

We kept drinking the slushie until it was all gone, alternating sips usually two at a time. I noticed I had to pee so I wandered off from Sasha, towards the porta potties

“Hey where are you going?” Sasha called out

“Just to the porta potties, over there. I gotta pee.”

“ok, I’ll come with you.” Sasha followed me and Donny stayed behind to look at the pugs. “Ok, so did you wet yourself again or are you really gonna use a toilet?” she asked.

“I’ve really gotta go. No accident, ok?” with that I felt a small dribble in my trainers and started running, small bits coming out as I went. I got to the place, opened it up and it was already filthy and smelled terrible. I was still dribbling tho so I pulled down my pants and trainers and finished going in the toilet. “Oh, no. I’m a little wet.” I thought to myself. “Maybe if I lie Sasha won’t know and there won’t be any problem. I only brought the one change so it’s not like she can do anything anyway.” I pulled up my bottoms and stepped out.

“Did you make it?” Sasha asked and the two stoner bros behind her tried to stifle a laugh.

“YeAh.” my voice cracked because I was nervous.

she pulled me back into the porta potty and checked me “Seems dry to me, but why do you seem nervous?”

“I-I maybe dribbled a little.” I couldn’t look her in the eye.

“Ok, she pulled the front of my trainers out and shined her phone flashlight out to see the damage. “It’s not too bad. I didn’t see another change in your bag when I fished out the first one. She took a deep breath. “Ugh yuck, the air. we’ll just deal with this right now and if it gets bigger I’ll take you across the street to the drug store and buy you some pull-ups.”

My heart sank. I was so proud when I got promoted to fabric training pants even though it was mostly because I grew out of pull-ups. I suddenly realized something. “Wait, but I’m too big for pull-ups!”

“That is true, I’m so used to babysitting physical children, I forgot you wouldn’t fit.” She thought for a moment and scratched her chin “They do have adult pull on diapers, they’re not decorated, but they’ll do for absorbancy.”

“I don’t really need the designs anyway, if my mom would buy them I’d wear plain white or grey trainers every day.”

“Sounds like a plan.” We walked out again and everybody was staring at us.

a campus security guard approached “What were you two doing in there?”

“Uhh, notHINg.” My voice cracked.

“Yeah, we were just making out.” Sasha said.

“Alright, well ya don’t need to take up a porta potty to do that. There’s a line. Just be normal college kids and make out in a field. But you should know if you were hooking up in there, that’s still public indecency. Now I’m not a cop, so I’m gonna let you off with a warning. Just be more considerate of others.”

“Yes sir.” We said in unison and then he strolled off with his hands on his belt.

“Jeepers, that was close.” I said. “I thought he was gonna say he knew what happened in there, or like we were gonna get kicked out.”

“Haha, me too.” Sasha smiled and rubbed the back of her head. “Let’s go to the pharmacy, everybody’s staring at us.”

“But I didn’t wet more.” I said in a half whisper half wine.

“I know, I just don’t wanna be here anymore.” Sasha took my hand and pulled me out of the puppy parade.

We walked into the pharmacy, it was cool from air-conditioning and whites and beiges were everywhere. We saw the children’s isle and walked up it. Sasha let go of my hand and said “Stay close.” before studying the weight range on every type of children’s pull-up. “How heavy are you?” She asked.

“About 220Lbs, I think.” I hadn’t weighed myself in months, but at 6’0 even I was a decent size guy. I didn’t have abs or anything, just big arms and a little tummy. I have some dumbbells next to my desk that I lift as sort of a stim toy when I watch YouTube videos.

“Alright, we’ll have to go over to the adult diaper section.” Sasha took my hand again and lead me over. She looked at everything and found a womens nighttime pull-up that had roses on it. “Look, these ones have designs!”

“Those are women’s though.” I said, slightly embarrassed.

“You don’t wanna wear women’s?”

“No.” I shook my head.

She moved down the aisle and found a men’s pull-up that had blue and white stripes. “Hmm, these are a little more boring but at least they have something. Everything else for boys is grey and black.”

“I’d honestly love the black ones.”

“Yeah, but you’re not the one picking them out, are you?” She did a bitchy little smirk and tilted her head at me. She walked back over and grabbed the women’s rose pull-ups again and began walking up to the counter.

“Wait, but Sasha those are the girl ones, pleeease Sasha I’m a man, I can’t wear the girl ones.”

“Quiet down, silly boy. You’re not a man so these’ll do fine.” She scanned them in self checkout and paid with my debit card. Then she took me to the bathroom at the back of the store.

“Alright, pants down, little boy.” She said to me and I pulled my pants down and then she squeezed the front of my trainers. “The wetness is starting to go through. It’s a good thing I’m changing you. She pulled down my trainers and helped me step out of them. Then she opened up the bag of women’s rose pull-ups and she opened one up for me to step into. I stood there with it around my ankles and she said. “Wait, I forgot to wipe you.” She went in my bag and got the wipes and wiped me down, just on the front this time. It wasn’t a boner per say, but I did get a half chub as she rubbed my Jr Meat Stick. My half chub was immediately emasculated when she pulled the pulled the pull-up up over top of it. “Alright all done!” She smiled “You can, put your pants on or I can get you a dress, Gena!” She teased.

“Stop being mean to me.” I sulked. “This is embarrassing.” I pulled up my pants.

“Ok sweetheart.” She grabbed my arms as she led me out of the bathroom.

We walked back over to the Puppy Parade and met up with Donny again, we had some fun and petted some more dogs before getting in Sasha’s car and heading home.

When I walked into my house I knew it would be terrible. My mom had a usual routine of checking my bag for homework assignments and stuff I wasn’t allowed to have after every day. I knew when she saw my Pull-ups she was gonna be furious.

Chapter 7:

I turned the handle and walked in. “Hi mom.” I said.

She looked up from her book. “Hi, baby. How was your day today?” She patted the seat next to her.

“It had its ups and downs.” I said. “There was a puppy parade! That was fun!”

“What’s a puppy parade?”

“It’s like a huge festival with dogs from shelters and you can come play with them and pet them.”

“Now that can’t be real.” My mom said, “Did that really happen?”

“It did! Look, I took a picture of some of them! I showed her a picture of old Jack and then swiped to a selfie of me, Donny and Sasha. “and this is me and my friends there too.”

“You’re spending time with a black man?”

“Uh, yeah.” I was confused. “Do you have a problem with me spending time with a black man?”

“No. Just be careful.” She grabbed my phone out of my hand and set it on the table. “That’s enough phone time. Show me what homework you have and tell me about school.”

“Right so, I have a test to study for. it’s not until Friday, but I wanna get cracking early!” I said with a smile. “Other than that, no it’s nothing.”

“What about your presentation tomorrow?”

“Oh! Well it got bumped up and I did it today?”

“And you were prepared to do it today?”

“umm, no. I uhh.”

“Speak up boy! what happened?” She grabbed my chin and pulled me to look at her. “And keep in mind before you lie I’m going to ask Sasha and she’s going to tell me everything.”

“I umm, I botched it.” I almost cried because I didn’t want to tell her “I wasn’t ready and the professor said I did so bad he graded me and Donny separately.”

“And what grade did you get?” she said coldly.

“I got a 42.” I tried not to look her in the eyes.

“Then you’ll receive 58 spankings.”

“What!? No mommy please! 58 is such a big number!” I begged.

“It’s only fair. That’s one spanking for every point you didn’t get.”

“It’s not fair! It wasn’t even my fault! I had time to catch up, but Sasha punished me for swearing and it took up too much of my time!”

“You swore?” She grabbed my shoulder and dug her nails in till it hurt. “So you’re telling me that not only did you fail an assignment, but you also swore and now you’re blaming Sasha for you having to face the consequences of your own inadequacy?!” She spoke with a sharp and bitter tone.

“Yes Mommy I’m sorry.” three tears fell from my eyes.

“I’m gonna call Sasha over here and she’s gonna tell me everything you’ve done and then she’s gonna watch how bratty little boys like you get punished.” She grabbed the cordless home phone and called Sasha “Hello Sasha! I’d like you to come over tonight. I’d like to ask you some questions about my son’s performance.” She spoke in a smiling tone and then was silent for a while. “That’s great, I’ll see you in an hour.” She bent over and pulled me up by my pants. “Now go to your room!” she smacked my ass and I began to walk “Wait.” She said in a deep gravelly tone. “Why is there no bulk in your pants?”

“I- I umm.”

“Speak up or I’m taking you out of college! you can spend all day here under supervision!”

“I peed my pants twice today and Sasha didn’t have anything to change me into so she bought me adult pull-ups to wear and they’re thin in the back because they’re not for pooping.” I talked a mile a minute and began to really cry.

My mom walked over and tugged down my pants. “These are girls!” She was appalled.

“Sasha picked them out for me. I begged her not to.”

“STOP LYING!”

“It’s my fault I asked for them!” I was forced to Lie.

“Now that’s the truth.” She walked over to my book bag and opened it up “I thought this bag looked misshapen.” She took the bag out. “YOU’RE GONNA WEAR EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE! You’re not wasting my money!”

“yes ma’am.” I said, still crying.

“Yes, Mommy. I am not ma’am to you.” She scolded.

“Yes Mommy.”

“I’m putting the parental locks back on your phone too. I don’t want you learning anymore about this transgender nonsense.

“I’m not transgender, I just liked the roses.” I made up a plausible lie.

You’re a boy, you shouldn’t like roses. She grabbed my phone from the coffee table and went into the ChildWatch app already downloaded on it. She flipped a switch and handed it back to me.

I looked and saw the processes going through “Uploading data to parent device” the notification read.

“May I go to my room?” I asked.

“Yes.” my mom said. “I’ll call you out when Sasha gets here.”

I tried all my apps. All the fun ones now had one hour screen time limits. If I tried to look up anything inappropriate the app auto closed. I tried google chrome and pornhub just straight up wasn’t on Google results.

I got a notification from the child watch app “I saw your search for porn hub, that will be factored into your punishment when Sasha gets here.” My phone screen turned grey and I couldn’t do anything on it. A message came In the centre of the screen that said “Screen Time Over, Go out and Play.” in big block letters of all different colours.

I put my phone down and went on my computer. at least it wasn’t locked. I watched some YouTube to self sooth, just child appropriate stuff in case my mom walked in. I watched a Pokémon Rom Hack let’s play where the guy played as a team rocket member.

A few hours passed and I had almost fully calmed down when my mom opened the door. “Sasha’s here. Living room, now!” she said, sharply.

I walked out to the living room and heard Sasha knock on the door. My mom let her in and Sasha took off her shoes as they greeted each other.

“So, what has my son been doing at school?” she asked.

“Well, he’s been trying his best, but I know his grades are slipping. He failed a big project today.

“Yes, he told me that. After some prodding. Anything else?”

“He had two accidents today, but he only brought one pair of training pants.”

“Right, he’ll have more PULL-UPS” She said pull-ups extra loud so knew they were sticking around. “Tomorrow to be safe for the school day.”

“That’d be great. I had to take him to the pharmacy to buy pull-ups today and he was a bit of a handful.”

“How so?”

“He was putting up a fuss about which pull-ups I should buy him, so I bought him the girl pull-ups to teach him a lesson.”

She looked at me. “But Gene, you said you wanted them.” She acted shocked.

“I tried to tell you the other way first, but you didn’t believe me.” I whined.

“So instead, you chose to lie to me?”

“umm, yeah I guess so.”

“That will be factored into your punishment.”

I winced.

“Continue, Sasha.” My mother said.

“He said the SH word today and it was the second time I’ve heard him say it. So I had to punish him and wash his mouth out with soap.”

“Very good job, Sasha.” She looked at me. “You’ll be punished a second time for that, because you said it twice.” she looked back at Sasha. “Is there anything else?”

“That’s all I can think of.”

“Well keep me posted if he misbehaves again. For now let’s get to the spanking.” She sat down on the couch and commanded. “Sasha, sit on the chair across from me and Gene, pants down and over my knee.”

“Yes Mommy.” I said, ashamed.

I pulled down my pants and pull-up “No no no.” my mother said. “You don’t take off your own pull-up. You’re not ready to be out of them.” I pulled the pull-up back up and bent myself over her knee. She pulled the back of my pull-up down leaving my frank and beans covered. and she began wailing on me with no warning.

I started squirming and whining. I wanted to get out and I knew I was strong enough to get out, but I knew if I left my next punishment would be even worse. Once she hit 15, she stopped. “I’m going to go slow now," she said. “16” she said as she landed one very hard slap

“owWw.” I whined.

She slapped me again “17” “18” “19” “20”

“Um, how many of these are you gonna do?” Sasha asked, she sounded like she felt bad for me.

“I’m going to do 58 and then I’ll hand him off to you and you can give him as many as you think he deserves.” My mother said confidently. “21” “22” “23” “24” “25”

“Aahhahaaa.” I kept whining, but I had given up squirming

“I don’t think I’m gonna do any, Miss Littlewood. I really think 58 is enough.”

“That’s fine, I have some ghost Pepper Mustard in the fridge. I’ll finish punishing him with that.”

“No, please Sasha, spank me!” I begged. I had had that mustard before as a punishment and it was truly awful.

“NO TALKING!” My mom shouted then she went in for 15 fast slaps.

“Ok, ok, I’ll.” It was hard for her to say. “I’ll spank him.”

Mom finished up my final 16 spankings at a medium pace, then she stood me up. “Sasha, come over here dear. it’s easier to spank him on a couch.”

Sasha got up and walked over “I’m sorry.” She said as she looked me in the eye and grabbed my arm. She sat down and rubbed her bare thighs.

“God bless the man who invented jean shorts.” I thought to myself.

“Come on down Genie.” She said and I did. I felt her left thigh against my thighs and it was so soft. She gave one slap, it wasn’t as hard as my mom’s and I was grateful. She slapped again and again and again, until we got to 15. “Is that enough Mrs Littlewood?” She asked.

“If you believe it to be, then it is.”

Sasha slapped me one more time with all her strength and I let out an audible “Oawah!” She pushed my chest to get me to stand up.

Sasha pulled up my pants and my pull-up and she hugged me, I hugged her back and some more tear fell from my eyes.

My mom came over to continue the humiliation “So now that we’ve untangled your web of lies and failure, what do you have to say for yourself?”

I honestly had no idea what to say. “I- I’m sorry I lied and I promise I’ll work harder to get my assignments done before they’re due.”

“Not your best, but I’ll accept it. Now go to your room.” I did what I was told and was grateful that all of that was over, but I knew I never wanted it to happen again

Sasha went home and a few hours went by. I texted Donny from a secure line I got on my computer.

“Hey, it’s Gene, my Mom’s being a real bitch, can I come stay with you tonight?” I sent.

“Oh yeah, sure tight. We’re having a weed and StarWars marathon tonight! Everyone would be mad happy to have you!” He replied.

Chapter 8:

If I wanted to escape I knew I had to be smart. My mother couldn’t suspect anything. I gathered up all the change that was laying around the house for bus fare. I used my computer to look up routes. I figured out how to undo the screen on my bedroom window. I knew my mom liked to take an hour long hot bath at 7:00 every night so I dragged up a suitcase from the basement in that time. I packed my favourite outfits and a few pairs of training pants as well as my Nintendo switch and childhood stuffed animals. I shaved the suitcase out the window so as not to get caught. then before the bath was over I went into my mom’s purse and stole the second copy of my debit card. I didn’t know the code, but I could always use tap for the bare essentials. I was careful to place the bag back perfectly so as not to get caught.

After some time my mom put me in my diaper and got me ready for bed. I pretended to go to sleep, but when she closed the door I bolted awake. I changed back into training pants and normal clothes then I climbed out the window, leaving my phone behind so I couldn’t be tracked by ChildWatch.

I had never been outside at night before, it was scary. “How does anyone see at night, it’s so dark. I kept hearing little creatures skitter around as I made my way to the bus stop. I sat down and waited for a while and when the bus showed up I got on. and paid the two dollars with dimes and nickels. The bus driver was very annoyed. I rode for a while, getting tossed back and forth.

“Hey, kid. where you going with that suitcase?” a nice old lady asked me.

“oh, I’m going to my university. I’m staying with a friend tonight because my mom kicked me out.” I told her a lie I had thought of beforehand.

“Oh you poor thing. How a parent can kick their own son out the house I’ll never know.”

“Yep, but I got all my stuff in here. So I’m going to start a new life. I’m an adult now!”

“mhm. Well more power to ya! You show your mom you’re better off without her.”

“I will!” the bus pulled up to my university and I got off. I walked up to the dorms and scanned my student ID. I walked out onto the cement patio of the rec area and saw 18 people all, half of them doing bong rips and the other half cuddling on a huge mattress watching StarWars Attack of the clones on a projector screen.

“Geeenieeee!” Donny called out, obviously very stoned. Come cuddle up to me. I’ll introduce you to everyone. I did what I was told and laid down on the mattress resting my head and right on Donny’s back. So this is Allen, Tim, Reynolds, Duely, Dexter, Catfish, Sienna, Trish, Johny London, Beallenbub, Bubby, fuckin uhhh Dave, Jennifer, Little Jennifer, Tall Delilah, The Toaster and UBS. and actually you know what your girlfriends here too. She’s taking a shit, she’ll be right back.”

“What!?” I began to panic “Sasha is here?!”

“Yeah, man. What, are you not happy to see her?”

“It’s just, she works for my mom ya know and I just sorta, ran away from home.”

“Hey man, it’s not running away from home when you’re an adult. It’s called moving out.” Donny said.

“Yeah,” said little Jennifer. “My dad was super strict, but when I had enough I moved on. It felt like a big deal then, but since we’ve been apart my dad and I have developed a way better relationship. This is probably just a part of growing up” the whole crowd nodded their heads and moaned a sort of yeah noise.

“Yeah, I mean you’re right. What’s Sasha gonna do, force me to go back, I’m an adult. I can do what I want.”

“Hell yeah brother.” The Toaster said, holding out his fist for a fist bump and for the first time in my life I fist bumped with confidence.

Sasha walked in with a bag of funions “GUYS! LOOK! THEY HAD FUNYUNS IN THE SCHOOL STORE!” She said.

“Duuude.” Everybody called out in unison.

Sasha grabbed 3 then passed the bag into the cuddle puddle. Then she crawled on top and laid on her stomach. “Oh, hey Gene.” She said… it took her a second to think “GENE! WHAT THE HECK! You’re not supposed to be here!”

“Yeah I am, it’s fine! I moved out!”

“What do you mean you moved out? You don’t have any money.”

“A gentleman has his ways.” I said smugly.

“What did your mom say? She had to have been pissed.”

“She uhh, doesn’t know yet, but she’ll find out in the morning.”

“She’ll find out a lot sooner than that!” Sasha shouted. “I’m taking you home!” Sasha stood up and wobbled. “I’m way too high to drive. Is anybody here sober enough to drive.”

“Nah, shut up.” Said The Toaster.

“Yeah, you’re ruining the vibe, Sasha,” said little Jennifer.

Tall Delilah and UBS stood up and crossed their arms.

UBS spoke first, “Let the man have some fun, eh? I thought you were his girlfriend. So what if he wants to leave home? That’s his choice, you should support him.

Tall Delilah spoke next. “Freedom in itself is an act of self care and who are you to deprive this honest, sexy man of his own health.”

Sasha thought for a moment “Gene, if you’re really sure this is what you want to do, then I won’t stand in your way, but I want to know. Do you have a plan?”

“Absolutely I do.”

“Then it’s your life. Sasha walked over to the front “May I rejoin the cuddle puddle?”

Everybody called out in varying degrees of yes’s and absolutlies and Sasha laid down next to me and snuggled into my chest.

After a while little Jennifer got up off the cuddle puddle and got the bong. She packed a bowl and took a hit. She walked over to me and said. “Hey Gene, Donny told me that you’ve been straight Edge up until this point, but now that you’re on the other side of the looking glass you wanna try some weed?”

I looked at her and thought, then I looked at Sasha and Sasha said “It’s your choice.”

“Yeah, but I don’t know how.”

Little Jennifer showed me a demonstration and even packed the bowl for me. I tried my best, but even with the water making it less burning I still coughed a lot. When I stopped coughing I felt dizzy and heavy. I leaned back into the cuddle puddle and Sasha leaned against me again. She rubbed my arms and chest and her soft hands were like little angels on every little nerve.

“You’re beautiful, you know that right.” I said to her.”

She smiled, “Thank you.” She slid up and kissed me gently on the lips, then a passion began to sweep over us. I grabbed her waist and pulled her in and we began actually kissing. Her lips were soft and her movement was passionate, she spread her legs over my thigh and began to gyrate. She pulled back for a breath. “Donny, can we use your Dorm room for some privacy?”

Donny tossed us his keys! “Hell yeah!” and with that I stood up and she jumped up, I caught her by grabbing her butt with my right arm and she wrapped her legs around me. We kept kissing and I kept bumping into walls on the walk out.

“Those kids are gonna be alright.” Said little Jennifer.

“Hell Yeah.” Said The Toaster, holding out his fist for a fist bump.

Chapter 9:

We made love, it was wet, hot, awkward and exhausting and I finished inside of her because I couldn’t control it.

“It’s ok, I’m on birth control.” Sasha said. We collapsed on the bed and snuggled up next to each other. “Not bad for your first time, I didn’t cumm, but still, it felt good.” She praised, rubbing my thin chest hair.

“Thank you, I really wanted to give it my all. You’re so beautiful and well, I’ve been thinking about you a lot.”

“I was afraid to admit it, but I’ve been thinking about you a lot too. But I was your babysitter, it wouldn’t have been right. Now that you’re a man though.”

“Adulthood rocks.” I said and Sasha laughed

“Should we get back to the party?”

“No, I want to live in this moment.” We laid there for a good while and fell asleep in eachothers arms.

I woke up in the morning soaked in urine with Sasha still hugging me. “Oh no.” I thought to myself. “Donny is gonna be so pissed.” I shook Sasha awake.

“Huh? Oh, good morning, handsome.”

“Sasha, I wet the bed and I wasn’t wearing any protection, now Donny’s bed is ruined.”

“Alright, well first thing we need to do is get these sheets off. Luckily we’re already naked and he was probably gonna wanna wash his sheets anyway.” We got up and stripped the bed.

“I don’t know how to do laundry.” I admitted.

“Ok, I’ll put my yesterdays clothes on and go put these in the laundry down the hall. You stay here and try to dry that patch up with Donny’s hair dryer and light some incense too.”

Sasha left and I got to work drying it. there was a slight yellow discoloration, but I was mostly sure he wouldn’t notice. I heard a nock at the door “Sasha?” I asked.

“Nah, it’s Donny, ya know, the guy who lives here. I gotta get in and get my shower stuff.

“Alright just a second.” I quickly threw on my yesterday clothes and let him in.

“Man it reeks in here, what did you do?”

“We, umm, we finally hooked up.”

“Congratulations man, but it ain’t supposed to smell like this. Get checked.” Donny grabbed his shower carry and a fresh change of clothes “Hey, why are there no sheets on my bed?” He asked.

“We’re washing them down the hall, out of respect.”

“Thanks man. Saves me the trouble.” With that he left.

“Hooah,” I breathed a sigh of relief.

Sasha came back a few minutes later “Man, it reeks in here.” She said as she finally lit the incense. “Alright, now let’s go get breakfast, free man.” She put her hand on my shoulder and we left the room.

We walked down to the cafeteria and saw Little Jennifer, The Toaster and Tim.

“HEY! SIT WITH US!” Little Jennifer called over.

“Ok!” Sasha said.

I grabbed a premade egg and ham sandwich on an English muffin, as well as a blueberry muffin and apple juice. Sasha grabbed a breakfast burrito and a salted caramel cold brew. We walked up to the self scan and paid for it. Then we walked over to our new friend’s table.

“Sooo, how did it go?” Little Jennifer asked.

“It went really well.” I said, with a gentle smile.

“Did you guys hook up?” Tim asked.

I looked at Sasha to see if she wanted to say “We did.” She spoke up.

“Tight.” The Toaster held out his fists to fist bump both of us and we fist bumped him back.

“So, Gene, now that you’re out and free, what’s your plan? Where are you gonna go.

“Well I wanna go to the bank and get my mom taken off the account, that way she can’t drain my money.”

“You think she’d really do that?” Little Jennifer, asked.

“Yeah, she’s very vindictive.”

“A good idea then, Where do you think you’ll live?”

“Do you think it’s too late to apply to live in a dorm?”

“It would be normally, but Big Jennifer and Short Delilah got caught plagiarizing a big paper so they’re no longer going here. a whole empty dorm room.”

“Wow! How do I get in contact with the person who handles applications?”

“That’s literally Tim, He’s a final year and a student advisor.”

Tim flipped his long straight auburn hair out of his face, leaned back to look cool and said “You’re in.”

“Really? Isn’t there a backlog of applicants?”

“Not really. Most students chose to live off campus this year because of the bedbug thing.” Tim said, still leaning back.

“The bedbug thing?” I asked.

“Oh yeah, tonne of em last year, everybody had to move out for fumigation. But we got it dealt with… Mostly.”

“Oh, uhh great!” I decided to take it in stride. “So can someone show me to my room?”

“I will.” Little Jennifer spoke up.

“I’m coming too!” Sasha said.

I grabbed my suitcase from the outside pavilion where the party was last night and we walked up to my room. It was a little bit bigger than Donny’s because it had two beds, but I was alone in it. Little Jennifer explained the rules and there really weren’t many. We had to be on college property by 2am, no smoking in the building and always wear sandals in the shower.

I unpacked my stuff into the drawers sneakily so little Jennifer wouldn’t see my training pants and stuffed animals. Then we heard a knock at the door. I opened it up and saw Donny on the other side

“I heard the good news, big dawg!” He said as he pulled me into a shoulder bump and patted me hard on the back. “You’re one of us now!”

“Thank you. Everyone’s been so welcoming since I got here. I should’ve moved out years ago.

While the door was still open Tim strolled up with a piece of paper “Hey, actually you gotta fill out this document and like, uhhhhhhh, pay for this stuff.” He said, looking half asleep.

“Oh yeah, sure, that makes sense.” I said. I put the paper down on the dresser and filled it out with everything I knew. I didn’t know my SIN number, I put down all the information on my debit card and I knew my full name. “I don’t know a lot of this.”

Jennifer spoke up “Maybe that bank trip is better off sooner than later. You may be able to glean stuff from that.”

“Good idea.” I said “Sasha can you drive me please?”

“Sure thing.” She agreed and with that we were off.

When we arrived at the bank I began to feel the need to pee. “Oh no.” I said.

“What?” Sasha asked.

“I need to pee.”

“Is there a bathroom in the bank?”

“No, we’ll just have to get in and out as quick as possible”

We ran inside and there were 6 people ahead of us in line, each one older than the last. We stood and waited and waited and waited and with each person papers needed signed, phone calls needed made and before I knew it I was wetting myself. I tried to hold it and release it slowly so my training pants could catch it all. I felt a few small trickles escape into my pants, but I didn’t think anything would be noticeable.

Finally the last old man sauntered out and the woman spoke “Oh, Hi Eugene! You’re here without your mom today, huh?”

I felt instantly relieved at seeing her face. This bank teller and I knew each other well, so I wouldn’t have to prove my identity to her.

“Actually yeah, me and my mom had a falling out so I was hoping to get her name taken off the account so she can steal my money.”

“Oh wow, that’s a serious thing, we’ll get that done right away, just swipe your card.” I swiped my card and she read something. “Alright, I’m not seeing a problem. The account is in your name and she’s just on as an authorized representative. You did sign the document to make her one, but that can be revoked at any time.”

“Great, I definitely want to revoke it.”

She handed me a piece of paper “Ok, I’ll need your signature here and here.” I signed it and she took it. “Great, she is off the account.”

“Hey, while I’m here. Do you have my social insurance number back there? It’s just my mom usually keeps track of that stuff and I don’t know it.”

“I have the last 4 digits, but everything else is just Asterisks.”

“Can you tell me about them?”

She read them out loud and I used the pen to write them on my arm.

Sasha spoke from behind. “What do you plan to do with those?”

“I’m gonna figure out the other numbers mathematically.”

“You can do that?”

“I assume so.” I turned to the bank teller. “Thank you for your help!” I smiled and walked away.

“Good luck, Eugene!”

We went outside and Sasha asked “So where to next?”

“First I’m gonna go to the gas station across the street and put on a fresh pair of training pants and then I want to go to the city office and see if I can get a copy of my birth certificate.

I grabbed my book bag from the back of Sasha’s car and we walked across the street.

“Why are you coming with me?” I asked.

Sasha sighed “I guess you’re right, you probably don’t need a beautiful woman to come rub down your privates and help you get cleaned up.”

I felt a little tingle in my lower abdomen. “Yeah, I guEss you can come.” My voice cracked.

Sasha laughed and grabbed my arm as we went into the bathroom together. She undid my belt and pulled down my pants. She squeezed the front of my trainers “tsk tsk tsk, these are soaked Little mister.” She pulled my training pants down and I stepped out of them. She pushed me down on the toilet. “Finish peeing, I want you to get everything out that you can.” I tried my best and got a good little bit out. “Are you done?” She asked.

“Yes ma’am.” I said, embarrassed and avoiding eye contact.

She grabbed the baby wipes from my bag and began to wipe me down while I was still on the toilet. I finally allowed myself to get a full erection during it. She pulled me up by my armpits so I was standing then she turned me around to face the toilet. She wrapped her arms around me and gave me a handy jammer.

After I finished she helped me into my new pair of training pants then tied the old pair into a plastic bag.

I put on my pants and we walked out of the bathroom. The old cashier shouted from behind the counter “OI! What were you two doing in there?!”

“Exactly what you think.” Sasha said confidently as she grabbed my wrist and ran, pulling me quickly out of the store.

We got back to the car and drove across town to the city office. We looked at signs and navigated our way to records.

“Hi, are you the person in charge of records?” I asked a short old lady.

“I’m not really in charge, I just work here.”

“I was wondering if there was anyway you could get me a copy of my birth certificate.”

“Do you have any ID?”

“I have my bank card!”

“That’s not ID.”

“What does count as ID in this context?”

“A passport, drivers license, a bill with an address.”

“Ok, I’ll go find some of those and I’ll get back to you.”

“Ok.” She said, completely uninterested.

We left and I spoke first “So I’m completely screwed, I need ID to get ID but I can’t get ID without ID.”

“Well maybe you can get the birth certificate your mom has at home.” Sasha pitched.

“And how would I get it from her?”

“You could ask her for it. You’ve moved out, so maybe she’ll respect you as a man now.”

We both took a moment to think “nooo.” We said comedically in unison.

“But what if she thinks I’m surrendering myself to be a child again.”

“What do you mean?”

“I could knock on the door and ask to move back in with her. She’d take me in and punish me then during her evening bath I can use my adult man strength to open the locked drawer without the key. I grab my birth certificate and walk right out the front door.”

“It seems awful. Do you really want to go through another day of even worse punishment just to get your birth certificate?”

“I think it may be my only option.

Sasha and I drove back to the university and everyone was excited to hear from us.

“How did it go?!” Little Jennifer asked.

“Good, for the most part. Unfortunately I couldn’t get everything done, but I’ve got a plan for the last of it.”

“Great, what’s your plan?” Donny asked.

“Well I gotta go back with my mother.”

“What!? why?” Donny asked, a little bit frustrated.

“It’s just for a day. I need to get my birth certificate and SIN number card out of the locked drawer at my mother’s house. That way I can get the information necessary to live here.”

“So what? You’re gonna trick her and tell her you’re moving back in and then steal your ID’s from her?” Donny asked.

“Exactly.”

Little Jennifer spoke again “There has to be a better way. You’re an adult, can’t you just ask for it?”

“She’ll never allow that. My mother’s strict and I mean strict strict. I have to trick her and face the consequences of running away from home.

I showered up and got on clean clothes. I spoke to everyone and we laughed and joked one last time. I left my stuff behind so I wouldn’t have . Sasha drove me across town. I thanked her and we kissed passionately before I got out of the car. I walked up to the door and knocked.

My mom opened up “OH MY BABY!!” she screamed as she immediately hugged me and began tearfully sobbing “I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have hit you. and I shouldn’t have blamed you for lying. You must have been so scared. I’m so sorry!”

Chapter 10:

I hugged my mother back “Hey, mom. You’re not angry at me?”

“No, baby. I was furious at first, but the longer you were gone the more I thought about it. I really haven’t been fair to you.”

“Thank you for saying that.” I struggled to hold back tears.

“Where did you go? What did you do?”

“I stayed the night at the university. My plan was to try and find housing for myself, but it was harder than I expected.”

“Of course it was, baby.” She reached up and brushed my hair.

“I was wondering if I can come back and live with you again, just until I can find a place of my own.”

“Of course you can sweetheart. This is your home.” She said as she pulled me in. “Where’s all your stuff?”

“My stuff?” I asked.

“You left with all your clothes and training pants. That’s how I knew you were-” she stopped to hold back tears. “gone for good.” her lips wobbled as she held them together.

“I left them with Donny so that when I move out it’s all right there.”

“Well what are we gonna put you in while you’re living here again?”

“It won’t be that long, I think. We don’t have to worry about that.”

“You can wear your night time diapers, I won’t make you wear the girl pull-ups. I know you didn’t like them.”

“Well I don’t wanna wear diapers because then I’ll need someone to untape me every time I use the bathroom.”

“It’s your choice, you can’t be out of padding, but you can wear your diapers or girl pull-ups.”

“I’ll… wear the diapers.” I pouted.

“Good boy.” She said, reaching up and patting my head. “Now let’s go get you changed.” she continued as she began to pull me down the hall

“But my training pants are clean and dry!” I protested.

“I understand, but you’re in diapers now so you should be wearing a diaper.”

“But I don’t wanna start alreadyyyy.” I whined.

“Come on, baby. Can’t you just let mama have her last little bit of time with her little boy.”

“Ok Mommy.” I bowed my head.

She took all my clothes off and then taped me into my diaper. She covered it with a pair of silk short shorts that were so short you could see the diaper through the leg holes and the waistband peaked out the top as well. For a top she selected one of the few shirts I didn’t take. It was a cheap black novelty t-shirt my asshole cousin bought me for Christmas. it had written on it “Who pissed my pants?” in yellow letters.

“Mooom, I hate this shirt.” I whined.

“Well you didn’t leave me with many options, so I’m doing my best.” She pulled me to my feet and kissed me on the lower cheek. “Now why don’t you play on the computer for a little bit and I’ll cook supper. I’ll make pork chops and potatoes, your favourite!”

“Thanks mommy!” I said, genuinely smiling.

She left and I sat down at my desk. I went on youtube and watched some funny stuff before texting Donny on my private line.

“Tell everybody it’s going better than expected. no punishment.” I sent.

“That’s great dude, Little Jennifer is so relieved.” he replied.

I watched more YouTube and got really into a video essay about robots in movies and their treatment in society. I was so focused I didn’t even notice I had to pee until it was almost too late.

“Ow.” I said as I felt a pinch in my bladder. “Oh, oh.” I said as I started to dance and got up. little bits of urine were leaking into my diaper as I made my way to the kitchen. “Mommy I need help, can you take me to the bathroom?”

“Just a few more minutes sweet boy, the pork chops are almost done frying.”

“I don’t know if it can wait that lOng.” I lost control of my voice as a larger amount went in my diaper.

“Then just go in your diaper sweety, that’s what they’re there for.”

“But I’m potty trained!” I said, disgusted at the notion of using my diaper on purpose.

“If a big boy is really potty trained he can hold it for a few minutes.”

I winced and held it as hard as I could, dancing back and forth, but it didn’t work and I flooded my diaper. I fell to the floor and began to really whine “Mommyyy, why didn’t you help meee?”

My mother approached me “Did you pee, little one?”

“Yes.” I couldn’t look her in the eye.

She helped me to my feet and checked my diaper.

“Are you going to change me?” I asked.

“No, I think it can hold more. Now that you’re in them full time we’ll have to be more conservative about what requires a change.”

“Ok.” I responded, disappointed.

“Now come to the kitchen, supper’s ready.”

I sat down feeling the wetness of my diaper squish against my bottom. I cringed, but only for a second as I noticed the smell of the pork chops overtake my attention. I picked up my fork and knife and my mom took them gently out of my hand.

“Here, let me cut these up for you.” She said, smiling. She cut the pork chops up into bites that were just a little too small for my mouth size.

“Thanks, mom.” I said.

“No mommy this time?”

“You cut them too small.”

“Ok, I’ll remember for next time. Try them, do they taste good?”

I put two bites in my mouth and tried to crush them together so my teeth wouldn’t clang together. They slipped around and I felt my teeth hit. I winced at the tingly feeling. The flavour was almost strong enough to cover the pain.

“Yeah, they taste good. Thank you.” I said in a medium happy tone.

I finished eating then got up to help with dishes. I started washing and my mom looked at me “Wow, that’s my big boy!, washing the dishes without being asked.”

“Thanks, mom.” I said. I finished washing and my mom hugged me. She gave me a fudgsicle from the freezer and I made my way back to the bedroom.

The rest of the night was fairly normal. I got online and played Minecraft minigames. When I got bored of that, I watched half of a movie on Netflix before I had to pee again. I knew I was already wet so I peed myself again.

“Wow, mom was right, it could hold more.” I thought.

I finished the movie and I knew I only had a few minutes until my bedtime. I opened up youtube and was deciding what to watch when my mom came in.

“Hi, baby, let’s get you ready for bed.” She said.

“Ok, Mommy.” I replied, standing up.

She tugged down my silk shorts and gently pushed me back on the bed. She untaped my diaper and wiped me down. She slid the clean diaper underneath me then put powder all over. She taped the new diaper on me then helped me up. She took my hand and led me to the bathroom where she watched me brush my teeth before taking me back to bed where she kissed me on the cheek and said Goodnight.

I laid in bed thinking “It’s so comforting how my mom is treating me now. Maybe running away for a night was what she needed to smarten up. If I really do stay will she keep treating me right? On some level I do still love my mother. She was mean a lot, but we have good memories too. If I stay I’ll miss the crew at the dorms, at least I’ll always have Sasha and we can spend more time with me while she babysits me. Forget those bumble dates, we can go on dates just the two of us, no chaperone! That would be exciting. I don’t know what to do.” As I thought these complex thoughts I drifted off to sleep.

Fiammaverde said:

An emotional roller-coaster, as usual.

Darkness cannot exist without light, likewise shame cannot exist without pride

Chapter 11:

I woke up in the morning and looked at the ceiling, I panicked for a moment, forgetting how I ended up back here, then I remembered. I had no phone to check so I rolled out of bed feeling the wetness of my diaper squish between my genitals and my silk shorts.

I walked out to the kitchen and saw my mom cooking. “Good morning, mom.” I said.

“Good morning, baby.” She said, not turning around.

“Frying bacon?” I asked.

“Yup, I want you to have a good breakfast. I got called in for a work emergency so I called Sasha to watch you.”

“Really, Sasha again?” I asked, pleasantly surprised.

“Yeah, I think she’s done a good job, don’t you?”

“Definitely.” I said simply. Some time went by and I spoke again “I have some afternoon classes. Is Sasha gonna take me to them?”

“Yes, but she won’t be taking you home, I’ve arranged for a nice woman named Emily to pick you up. She’s 33 and runs a daycare out of her basement so you’ll have lots of other kids to play with.”

“Why do I need to go to a daycare? Is Sasha not available?” I asked, incredulously.

“Well, it’s just, now that you’re back in diapers I think it’s a little much to expect Sasha to take care of you.”

“Emily has experience with babies and special needs children so diaper changes won’t be hard for her.”

“But Sasha changed my diapers before for my bedwetting.” I whined.

“Bedwetting is one thing, but constant pants peeing is another and have you even thought about when it’s time for you to make poopies?”

“I’m really good at holding my poops. I’ve only had three poopy accidents this year.”

“Sweet heart, it’s May and you’re 19. That’s not impressive.” She scooped the bacon off the pan and brought it over to me with some buttered toast. I made myself two sandwiches while my mom sat across from me and ate as well.

While we were eating Sasha came to the door and mom let her in. I got up and hugged her. We both knew to pretend we weren’t dating.

“Hi Genie, how have you been, you cutie? She asked in a cutesy voice.

“I’m ok. I’m back in diapers, full time.” I told her, sadly.

“Aww you poor thing.” She looked at my mom “So he’ll need to be tended to more directly?”

“Yeah, if you wouldn’t mind helping him in the washroom and handling checks and changes at university.”

“Sure, that’ll cost extra though.”

“Of course. How does an extra $20 a day sound?”

“Sounds fantastic.”

“Hey Mom.” I spoke up “Before you leave, can I have my birth certificate and Social Insurance Number to fill out the documents at University today?”

“Not today sweetheart. I’ll tell you what, you pick a day I have off and I’ll bring them in and help you fill them out. I just wanna keep hold of them so you don’t lose them.”

“Oh, ok.” I sadly trailed off and then had a thought. “I only need my social insurance number for the documents. Can you just tell me it and I’ll write it down?”

“No, baby. If it’s written down and someone else finds it they could use it for bad stuff.”

“I promise I won’t lose it. Unlock my phone and I could keep it in my notes app.”

“No, baby and that’s final. Bring it up again and I won’t even take it out to help you.”

“Ok.” I bowed my head and accepted it.

“Alright I’m gonna head out.” She grabbed her purse and kissed me on the cheek. “Good luck with him.” she mumbled to Sasha as she walked out the door.

“Alright so why are you back in diapers?” Sasha asked, finally showing her emotions.

“Oh, I left my training pants at the University because I didn’t think I’d be gone long. So she decided that I can wear diapers while I’m living here again.”

“Do you think if you brought home some training pants from the university she’d put you in those instead?”

“That’s a great idea! I hadn’t thought of that!” I was legitimately excited.

“Great so that’s a plan. But we might not even need to do that. If we can bust open that locked drawer you talked about we can steal the cards and never come back.”

“That is true, but my Mom’s been being so nice to me. I don’t know if I want to betray her again.”

“She’s being nice to you? She has you back in diapers and wearing a humiliating shirt.”

“Yeah, but she hasn’t been yelling at me or accusing me of lying and she even made me bacon this morning.”

“Genie, come on, don’t you want out of here?”

“I do, but I think I can do it while still having my mother in my life. It’ll just take some extra time.”

She took a deep breath and said “Fine, if that’s what you want I’ll support you for a few days, but after more than three I really don’t think I want to date the boy I’m babysitting.”

My heart sank. It felt like now I had to choose between this nice new soft life with my nice mom and my awesome new cool life at university. “Fine, I’ll try.” I walked over to the locked drawer and grabbed a hold of the handle. I pulled and pulled and pulled then suddenly CRACK the drawer ripped open. We looked inside, sliding things around, but something we had never considered was what if the cards weren’t in the locked drawer.

“Shit. Shit.” I said shuffling the papers around “They’re not in here.”

“I thought you said this is where she keeps them.”

“Every time she needed it she always grabbed it from there. She must have moved it at some point.”

“And now the drawer’s broken and you still can’t move out.

“Can we fix it? Do you know how to fix a locking drawer?”

“I’m a philosophy major. Why would I know how to fix a locking drawer?”

I looked down at the broken part, studying every piece carefully. I tried to figure out the locking mechanism. There appeared to be a large piece of metal that was responsible for holding the lock back. It was bent, but it didn’t look super strong. I tried to bend the metal with all my strength and got it back to a roughly similar shape. I tried to slide the drawer back in, then I realized it was too tall to go back. “Shit! It was locked in, now it’s locked out.”

“Is it possible to rebend it then use some kind of leverage object to bend it back up on itself.” Sasha asked.

“That’s great," I said. “My mom has a crowbar in the shed.”

I grabbed the key ring from the hook by the coat wrack and went outside to the shed. I opened it up and there was of course the lawn mower, weed wacker, christmas decorations and boxes and boxes of old toys. I looked through the toys, recalling them all and grabbing three of them. Then I snatched up the crowbar and left. I approached the drawer, leveraging it over and over again and after a frustrating 45 minutes finally got it to stay in place.

“Do you think she’ll notice?” I asked.

“It’s hard to say.” She replied.

There were a few moments of silence.

“I hate to bring this up now, but I’ve needed my diaper changed since I got up and nobody’s done it yet.”

“Uuuuuuh.” Sasha groaned. She took my arm and led me back to my bedroom, she pushed me back on the bed and pulled down my shorts. She untaped my diaper then asked “Do you want to take a shower, before I put you in a fresh one for the day?”

I said, “Yeah, that sounds like a good idea.” and I went and showered.

It felt nice to get the now sort of burning pee off of me and freshened up. I used some scented lotion this time and then made my way back to the bedroom. Sasha was in there laying on my bed scrolling on her phone.

“I looked through your drawers, why do you have so many pacifiers in your bedside table?”

“I don’t like them. My dumbass cousin buys them for me. He always makes fun of me for all this. He bought me that stupid who pissed in my pants shirt too.”

“Then, why do some of them have teeth marks?”

“Because shut up, that’s why.”

“Is that any way to talk to your babysitter?” She teased.

“No, sorry ma’am.” I bowed my head, then crawled up on the bed laying up against her, while butt naked.

“You want some snuggles do ya?” She asked, kissing me on the cheek and pulling me closer.

“Yeah, I have a feeling this is gonna be very hard. But you’re the most important thing to me right now. I want to change my life for you. I want to be a man for you.”

“But neither of us know if your mom will let you.” We kissed passionately then turned our bodies to face each other. We made out for about 15 minutes, gyrating and rubbing every part of eachother. Then she pushed me away “I should really get you into your diaper so we can be ready to head out.”

“Ok.” I said as I slid down the bed, dropping my legs over the edge and getting into changing position.

Sasha got up and grabbed three diapers from the lower drawer of my dresser. She taped me into one and put the other two into her satchel when she went out to the living room. I got to pick out my outfit this time. I picked out a pair of jeans that were just a little too tight. My diaper peaked above the waistband so I chose an oversized Corona Beer Shirt that my grandfather gave me before he died. He always said I’d grow into it. It was a 5Xl though so I don’t really know what he was thinking.

I walked out into the living room and Sasha said “Your Mom lets you wear a beer shirt?”

“I haven’t worn it yet, but it was a gift so I think it’s fine.”

“Ok, then, I won’t stop you.” With that we went outside, got in the car and drove to the University.

Chapter 12:

Trigger Warning: Eating Disorder (Small Mention, no graphic depiction)

We arrived at the university. It was sunny and the wind was blowing a lot. I tried my best to keep my oversized shirt down to conceal the top of my diaper.

Sasha and I parted ways with a gentle and tender kiss. Her off to her class and me off to the dorms. The main entrance to the dorms had a few people sitting in it. Donny of course, Little Jennifer and The Toaster. They were all sitting on a big leather couch that wasn’t there before watching something on a laptop.

“Hey guys!” I said, as I approached.

They looked up at me immediately, way more interested in what I had to say than the laptop.

“Holly Fuck, how’d it go?!” Donny asked first.

“It went well, my Mom wasn’t angry at all. She actually hugged me when I came back and she made me my favourite supper.”

“That’s so great, Gene.” Little Jennifer said with compassion.

“D’ya get the cards?” Donny asked.

“Uhh, no. They weren’t where I thought they were, but my mom’s gonna come in and help me fill out the forms in a few days. She’s being nice about it.

“That’s scary, don’t you think?” Little Jennifer asked. “What if she just decides it’s a no?”

“I don’t know. I’ll have to find a different solution.”

“So, does that mean you gotta live with your mom for a few more days to get out?” Donny asked.

“Yeah, I think so.”

“Fuck man. That sucks.” We all looked around not knowing what to say. and then Donny spoke again “Wanna sit down with us?! We’re watching a Vietnamese horror movie. It’s weird, but it’s also like weirdly good.”

“Yeah, ok!” I said.

Little Jennifer tried to push Donny away to make space next to her and Donny slid over to be nice. “Sit with me!” She said.

“Ok.” and I plopped down in between them, my diaper crinkled as I landed and worried if someone heard, I looked around. Donny and The Toaster had regular faces, but Little Jennifer looked interested. I pretended like everything was normal and Donny pressed play on the laptop. Although a minute into the movie playing I felt little Jennifer pull the back of my shirt down to cover my diaper again. I hadn’t even noticed it riding up. I spent the rest of the movie panicking that she knew.

When it was all over the others were gobsmacked.

“That was incredible!” The Toaster said.

“It really was. the twist with the mom I didn’t see coming at all but it was there and it made sense.” Said little Jennifer.

“I hated that sound the bones made, but it was also kinda the best part.” Said Donny.

“I knooow, disgusting.” The Toaster said and everybody laughed.

“What did you think, Gene?” Little Jennifer asked.

“Yeah, it was good. I liked when the demon lady went on her back and twisted around.” I said, still nervous.

“Yeah, super gross!” Donny agreed.

Little Jennifer stood up and pulled a $20 bill out of the back of her phone case and handed it to Donny “Hey, why don’t you guys go down to Little Caesars and get us a hot and ready. I wanna talk to Gene about something, in private.

“Oh yeah! Tight!” Donny Said.

The Toaster held out his fist to fist bump her. She fist bumped him back and he said “Thank you.” They got up and left.

“Gene, come with me.” Little Jennifer said as she grabbed my wrist and pulled me into a room labeled Private Study Room. “Listen I don’t know if this is maybe a… This might be a delicate secret to share, but I wanna ask…” She took some time to phrase it correctly. “It’s ok if you’re not comfortable sharing, but I saw that you are wearing some… Protection under your pants.”

I turned beat red from embarrassment and tried not to cry “Please don’t tell anyone! It’s really embarrassing!” I begged her.

“Don’t worry, I won’t. I won’t tell a soul. The reason I brought it up to you is because I’m…” She took a second to think. “I have a similar condition.”

“Condition?” I asked. “What kind of condition do you mean?”

“I um, it was my eating disorder. You probably noticed I’m quite small for my age. I uh, I didn’t eat a lot growing up and it caused a lot of damage in my development and my nervous system so I’m uh… I’m also incontinent.”

A wave of relief washed over me “Of course, incontinence, it’s the perfect excuse!” I thought to myself. “I could tell her I’m incontinent instead of struggling with potty training! It makes perfect sense!”

“So, you wear diapers too?” I finally spoke out loud.

“Not tape on ones like you, but these.” She reached down her pants and pulled up the top part of something that was obviously paper but intended to look like underwear.

“Wow, it’s so thin.”

“It’s just urinary incontinence, I have small leaks on my way to the bathroom. I can make it most of the time.”

“That’s great. I have umm accidents. Sometimes I get focused on something and I don’t notice that I have to go and then all of a sudden it hits me all at once.”

“That sounds hard. Do you have big wettings? Is that why you need the full tape on diapers?”

“Well actually I don’t usually wear these in the day. These are what I wear at night. I have some absorbent cloth underwear I wear in the day, but I left it all here so I had to wear these today.”

“Oh ok. Well that’s good that you found a product that’s more comfortable. I can’t imagine it being easy to pull down a tape on pad.”

“You can pull down a tape on diaper?” I thought to myself. “Why the fuck have I been asking for help all this time?”

I took too long to speak so Little Jennifer spoke again “So are you gonna go upstairs and change into your day time underwear?”

“I’d really like to.” I said.

“Then you should! I mean, it’s better anyway right?” She smiled.

“Yeah!” I said and we naturally walked out and started heading up to my room.

I unlocked the door and we walked in. I squatted down and opened the bottom drawer of the dresser. All of my training pants were in there and I pulled one out. “These are what I wear.” I said as I handed it to her.

“It’s certainly creative.” She said.

It was my least childish looking pair. It had a simple pattern of the dancing waffle from that early 2000’s viral video.

“Thanks.” I said.

“You don’t have any like, plain white or black ones?”

“I don’t. My mom buys them from Etsy and she likes the patterns so…”

“You should buy yourself some you like! Ya know, when you get this all worked out. You should control what you wear for this. It’s important to remember that what we have is a health condition and it’s not some moral failing that we should be treated like children over.”

“Thanks for saying that.” I smiled.

“I was half saying it for myself.” She smiled back. We made eye contact and leaned in close, for a second it seemed like we were going to kiss but then she backed away “I’ll go stand out in the hall while you change.” She said as she scampered out of the room.

“Alright, this isn’t impossible.” I thought to myself. “She said these can be pulled down so I wonder if I can untape them myself.” I picked at the tape and got one off then I did the other three and it fell to the floor. “I did it! I took my own diaper off!” I thought excitedly as I jumped up and down. I pulled up my training pants and then put my pants back on before I folded up my diaper and put it in the trash. I pulled out a few tissues to cover up the diaper and then I let Little Jennifer back in.

“Everything went well?” She asked.

“Yep!” I smiled and jumped a little, slapping my padded butt.

“That’s great.” She smiled and we walked back downstairs. The guys were there with the pizza and four slices already missing. Jennifer had one and I had two.

We chilled for a while longer, then Donny and I had to go to class.

When I got to class I was surprised to find Friday had come and so had the test. I really hadn’t studied at all. I sat there staring at the page and every other question had small tangents to the questions I had never heard of. Ultimately I did everything I knew how to do and turned in my test 15 minutes before the end of class then I sat there dreading the low grade I knew I was going to get.

After class Donny and I made our way back to the dorms and Sasha met us there. “Hey guys, how was class?” She asked.

“Good, we had a test, I freakin nailed it.” Donny said proudly.

“How did you do, Genie?” Sasha asked.

“I did ok, I think.”

“Well me and Gene are gonna spend some time in his dorm alone so, we’ll talk later.” She said.

“Not a problem at all.” Donny replied, he did a single finger gun followed by a half spin and walked away.

We walked into the dorm and Sasha shut the door. “So how’s your diaper doing?” She asked.

“I’m… actually not in a diaper.” I corrected.

“Well what are you wearing? She asked, worried.

“I switched back to my training pants.”

“Who helped you do that?”

“No one.” I said proudly “I did it all by myself!”

“Ok, listen. You’re trying to grow up and be independent and I get that. When you’re free and out it will be ok for you to make decisions like that. Right now though, I am your babysitter so you ask me before you do something like that.” She grabbed my wrist and tried to pull me but this time I didn’t let her.

“What are you doing?” I asked.

“I’m putting you back in a diaper.”

“Why!?” I was shocked.

“When your mom left you with me you were in a diaper and she left me responsible for your checks and changes. If you come home in a different level of underwear, that reflects poorly on me.”

“But the diapers don’t reflect the level I’m on, they’re just temporary until I can get my training pants home.”

“Did your mom ever say that?”

“Not in those exact words, but it was the implication.”

“You’re in diapers Gene, you said so yourself this morning and the fact that you’re arguing with me about it makes you seem really immature and makes me wanna date you even less.”

“Fine.” I sighed as I pulled down my pants and trainers and laid on the bed.

Sasha pulled a diaper out of her satchel and taped me into it. She kissed me on the cheek then helped me up “Now you’re gonna be on time out for taking off your own diaper for 10 minutes, go stand in the corner.”

“Seriously?” I asked, humiliated.

“Yes seriously, you broke a rule and put up a fuss so go.” She commanded it and I did.

I stood in the corner of my own dorm room with an exposed diaper and my babysitter watching me. “I’m a man.” I thought to myself. “I deserve better than this. I don’t wanna be a baby anymore. I haven’t needed diapers full time since I was 11 years old. Why do I have to start again now? This is stupid.” This timeout was different, I didn’t change my mind. The 10 minutes elapsed and I was just as frustrated as ever.

“You can come out now. Are you ready to apologize?” Sasha asked.

I really didn’t want to but I knew if I didn’t I would have to go back on time out. “I’m sorry I took off my own diaper and that I put up a fuss about being put back in them.”

“That’s a good boy.” She said as she reached up and ruffled my hair. She helped me into my pants then took me by the hand and brought me down stairs. Donny, Little Jennifer and a few others were sitting around talking.

“Oh hey Gene!” Little Jennifer said.

“Hey!” I said back.

“D’ya enjoy your alone time?” Donny smirked.

“Yeah, it was-” I was interrupted.

“Great.” Sasha said, with a smile.

We sat down at the table and saw they were playing chess.

“Oh shi-man!” I corrected myself “Are you guys playing chess?!” I asked.

“Yeah, but everybody sucks so nobody can beat Tall Delilah.” Donny said.

“Can I have a crack? I’m really good at chess” I said shyly.

The Toaster stood up and said “Sure thing, I’ve basically lost anyway. There’s already no way out.” He held out his fist for a fist bump and I fist bumped him. I sat down and we put the pieces back at the start.

The game was intense. I spotted movements and plans. Classic techniques that showed she was well studied, but I could tell I was better. Every piece she moved I detected thoughts and changes until eventually “Check.”

the room gasped

“Fuck.” Tall Delilah mumbled. She scratched her head and moved one piece before in two more moves I took down her queen. “AH! You beat me!” She said, surprised and excited. “Finally someone here with some brains!”

I felt a rush, suddenly I was the big brain on campus. After getting humiliated in my dorm this moment felt like the grace of God.

“We have a new champion!” The toaster said as he placed a cardboard burger King crown on my head.

“Congratulations, you’re like a hot Magnus Carlsen.” She said as she shook my hand. “Good game.

Little Jennifer came up behind me and put her hand on my shoulder. “Great job! You seemed smart when I met you! You’ve got quite a mind.” She smiled.

“Thank you.” I said and we stared into each other’s eyes. I felt the pull again, but I resisted it.

I played a few more games of chess against the majority of the people there and beat almost everybody. I gave Little Jennifer some pointers and let her win a game. The Toaster did it ironically but he took my crown and put it on her. It was a cute moment. Eventually class time came again and I had to go.

This class was normal, I sat and listened and wrote notes. Sitting there I realized it had been hours since I peed. I hadn’t peed before my last class or during the dorm thing or during chess and it was all catching up to me. I danced in my seat but there was still an hour and 25 minutes in the class. I wet myself. I sat through the rest of class feeling ashamed, I kept notes to the best of my ability and when it was done I walked out and found Sasha for help.

“Hi, Genie.” She said “How was class?”

“It was ok.” I said, before leaning in to whisper. “I’m wet and I need changed.”

“Ok.” She mumbled before she ushered me into the disabled and family bathroom nearby. She pulled my pants down and looked at my diaper. I think it can hold more. You’ve only got one diaper for the rest of the day so it’s best to be conservative.”

“But I don’t wanna walk around wet.” I whined.

“Well it’s too bad you’re not out on your own, to make your own rules.” She said as she hiked my pants back up. “Now come on, it’s time to go.” She grabbed my wrist and pulled me out to the parking lot where a van labeled Emma’s Daycare was waiting for me.

“Hi! You must be Gene!” A redheaded, fat, middle aged woman called out from the van. “Climb on in!” and I did.

Fiammaverde said:

I’m glad you found the way to throw in chess. And I’m especially looking forward to the very next chapter!

Yeah! I wanted to give him a win and I already established him as being academically smart so figured it was the perfect skill! Also I’m very excited for the next chapter too! Emma I’ve got so many different direction I can take it!

Chapter 13:

I said goodbye to Sasha and opened the sliding door. Inside the van were a bunch of kids. Two 5 year olds in the front row, the next row back had some slightly older kids who looked to be 7 or 8 and in the very back were 3 tween looking around 12. There was a much older looking Asian girl in the passenger seat who stared at her phone uninterested.

“Come on in, we’ll have you sit in the front row so we can get to know ya Gene!” Said Emma, the driver. “Mandi, can you get out and help him in?”

The Asian girl got out and guided me into my seat in the front pushing my butt and hips. She didn’t say a word but I could tell she was surprised to feel my diaper. She buckled my seatbelt for me, closed the door and went back to the front seat.

“So Gene,” Emma spoke again, “You’re in university, what are you studying? Is it a big interest?”

“Engineering.” I said, getting more comfortable because we weren’t talking immediately about daycare. “I’ve always been really good at math and I like building stuff so it seemed like a good choice.”

“That’s great! We’ve got Legos and k’nex in the big kid room at my place. You can have fun with those!” She smiled. “Do you have any hobbies?”

“I watch YouTube and I play video games.”

“That’s great! We have a Nintendo switch in the big kid room too!”

Mandi elbowed Emma in the side and said something in sign language. I only recognized one word “diaper” my deaf uncle used to use it a lot to tell my mom when I was poopy.

Emma thought for a second “The little kid room has some fun stuff too! We do arts and crafts and activities, like backyard bowling!”

“If you don’t mind, I’d like to be in the big kid room. It’s just, I’m an adult so daycare is kinda embarrassing on its own.”

“Hey Gene, don’t be embarrassed. My daycare has had all kinds. We had a 45 year old autistic man for a few years who was a regular visitor. We tried him in the big kid room, but he found he liked it better with the little kids. I think you’ll fit in great there!”

I looked over at the little kids and saw one chewing on her sleeve and the other with snot dripping down his face. “Can I please try to fit in with the big kids first and see if it’s best to go down?”

“Sorry Gene, but that’s a no can do. Mandi told me about…” She took a second to think “What’s in your pants and I think it’s best if you stick close to me. I watch the little kid room and Mandi here, she’s 18, she watches the big kids. Maybe we can try you in the big kid room once we learn your schedule.”

“Ok.” I said, disappointed.

One of the kids in the middle row called out “What does he have in his pants?”

“Probably a diaper!” said one of the tweens.

Everybody laughed and I felt humiliated, to the point I almost started crying.

“He’s not in diapers, Tanner.” Emma lied for me. “Doesn’t he look a bit too old for them?

“Earny wore them!” Tanner responded.

“Yes, but Earny was a special case, you know that and he was very nice to you. Would you want Earny to feel bad for wearing diapers?”

“No I guess not.” He said. “I’m sorry I said you wear diapers Gene. That wasn’t cool.”

“That’s great Tanner, good job.” Emma fist pumped.

We pulled up to the daycare and Emma and Mandi got out. Mandi opened the door and Emma walked over. Emma climbed in and unbuckled me “climb out and hold hands with Mandi, ok?” she said.

“Ok.” I responded as I climbed out and put my hand out. Mandi looked distastefully at me but she reached out and took my hand. Her hand was soft and warm. Emma unbuckled the two 5 year olds then she climbed out with them. The bigger kids were allowed to unbuckle themselves and no one but me had to hold hands with a grown up.

Emma started walking to the door and everyone followed including Mandi and I walked with her. We entered and walked down the stairs, I saw the other kids hang up their bags then sort themselves into their rooms. Mandi took my book bag off and hung it on a hook. She took out a marker and wrote Gene LKR on it. She walked into the big kid room and I tried to follow, she put her hand on my chest and pushed me back, pointing to the little kid room. She pointed at me then put her hand down flat pushing it down in a scolding manner, as if to say I was a little kid. I hung my head and walked across the hall.

The little kid room was yellow, there were small plastic chairs and tables, a set of plastic drawers full of craft supplies and toys scattered everywhere. I saw the timeout corner was labeled and had two available chairs. I found a chair in a different corner and sat down not talking to anyone. Some time passed and I was very bored, so eventually I picked up some random toys, red power ranger and Ben 10. I played with them and imagined a scene in my head of a crossover where the two fight each other then become friends. Before I knew it I really got carried away and I was making noises with my mouth.

An 8 year old came up to me and asked “Hey, can I play with you? Everyone else here is kind of a baby.”

I stuttered, I didn’t really want to play with the kids in here, but I didn’t wanna be rude. “Uh, ok.” I said.

“Great! I’ll be Luke Skywalker then.” He pulled out a Luke Skywalker toy.

“You like StarWars?” I asked.

“Yeah, my dad showed me it!” His face lit up “It’s so cool! it’s got like light sabers and a robot man and there’s like fighting and they’re in space!”

“Yeah, I like StarWars too.” I said calmly.

We moved our toys around and said what our guys were doing. We had a lot of fun for just a few minutes until Emma came up and approached us.

“Hey, you guys are having fun!” she said with a smile.

“Yeah!” said the little boy “It’s nice to have another older kid who gets what I’m talking about.”

“That’s great Derren!” She smiled. “Now boys, we’re about to do a fun arts and crafts project. Mother’s Day is coming up so we’re going to make Compliment Flowers! Now Derren, you go head over to the middle table and I’m gonna check something with Gene.”

“Ok!” He said, standing up and running off.

She leaned down and whispered in my ear “How’s your diaper doing, little buddy?” She asked.

I shifted in my seat to try and feel. “It’s pretty wet.” I said, embarrassed.

“Alright, do you need help getting changed or can you do it on your own?”

“I think I can do it on my own.” I said, unconfidently.

“Ok, I’m gonna come with you to the bathroom and I’m gonna turn the other way while you change. If you need any help just ask.” I nodded and she grabbed my hand, pulled me up and we walked out into the hall, holding hands.

We entered the bathroom and she handed me a dry diaper from a shelf. It had cartoon characters I didn’t recognize on it and was quite a bit thicker than my normal Tena slip maxi. I pulled down my pants then hopped up on the changing table. I felt the diaper and I truly realized how wet I was. “I was having so much fun I didn’t realize I had to pee.” I thought to myself. I picked at the tapes and got them loose, unfolding my diaper off of me, it fell with a wet slap. I looked around and couldn’t find any wipes. “Where are your wipes?” I asked.

“They’re under the changing table on a shelf.” she said.

“Thank you.” I hopped off the table and grabbed the wipes, they had a child lock on them that I couldn’t figure out. “Emma, I uh, I don’t know how.” I said.

“It’s ok, we all struggle with different stuff, that’s why you’re with me. I know you’re trying your best.” She turned around then ushered me back on the table. She folded up my old diaper and threw it out then opened the wipes without thinking. She wiped me down, then unfolded the new diaper and taped me into it easy and quick. She helped me up and I put my pants back back on then she ushered me back to the little kid room.

I sat down on a small chair and saw there was construction paper, scissors, glue and markers. All the other kids were sitting around the table and Emma sat next to me. “Ok, I’m gonna give an explanation on how to make these. You guys just follow along.” She talked for a bit longer explaining the shape we were supposed to cut and that we should pick out mom’s favourite colour. I grabbed some construction paper and picked up some scissors. Emma put her hand on my wrist to stop me. “Sorry, does your mom let you use those at home?”

“Yeah.” I said. “I open packages and stuff.”

“Ok, while you’re here though maybe you can ask for help with the big scissors and you can use the safety scissors like Charlotte and Robby.”

I looked over and saw that Derren was using big scissors while the two 5 year olds were using safety scissors. “But I’m older than Darren and he’s using big scissors.” I complained.

“I know, you’re just new here. I wanna make sure you don’t hurt yourself on the first day. Maybe if you do a good job the first few crafts you can work your way up. That’s how Darren got them!” Emma smiled.

“Ok.” I said sadly.

I started cutting the shapes and it was very difficult with the safety scissors but eventually I got enough of them out

“Ok, now that everyone’s got their shapes I want you to think of 10 things you like about your mom’s and write them in the shapes.” Emma said to the whole table, before she got up to go help the 5 year olds with writing.

I sat and racked my brain for things I liked about my mom. She had only been nice to me for one day. I thought about how I like her pork chops and how she lets me stay up late to watch the fireworks on new years Eve and Canada day. I remembered that she cooks me breakfast every morning she’s home and how if I’m a good boy all year she raises my bedtime a half an hour. I wrote them all down but that was only 4.

Emma came up and asked “Are you having trouble?”

“Yeah.” I said.

“Well, does your mommy give you nice hugs?”

“Sometimes.”

“Does she tuck you in bed?”

“Yeah.”

“You’re in college, does she handle your money?”

“Yeah.”

“There’s three right there you can thank her for. I’m sure you can think of two more.” She smiled as she moved on to help Darren.

I wrote them down and I also thought of her buying me adult looking outer clothes and how she lets me pick my own outfits most days.

“Ok.” Emma said “I’ve got some yellow circles in the middle, I want you to write I love you mommy because on one of them then glue the petals you just made to the circle.”

I got to work writing then I picked up a glue stick and Emma grabbed my hand again. “Here, let me do that for you.” She said as she pulled the glue stick out of my hand.

“I’m not a baby, I can do it.” I sulked.

“If you wanna try, I’ll let you, but be careful not to get any on your fingers. This will stick them together.”

“I’ve used glue before.” I took the glue back with an attitude and started working again. I glued three on then got a little glue on my hand. I didn’t wanna get in trouble so I didn’t say anything. By the time all the petals were glued my hands were very sticky and two of my fingers were stuck together.

“How did you do, Gene?” Emma asked, she looked at the flower “Very nice.” She looked at my hand and grabbed it. “Very sticky, you said you knew how.”

“I do, I just messed up!” I said defensively.

She pulled me to my feet. “Lucky for you this is water soluble.” She pulled me into the bathroom and began to scrub my hands for me. “Did you notice how none of the bigger kids got their hands sticky? That’s why I wanted to help you.” I looked away, embarrassed. She reached down my pants and checked my diaper. “Mostly dry.” She sighed before walking me back to the little kid room.

“Alright everybody! We’re going let the flowers dry and until they’re dry we’re gonna go outside and have sprinkler time!” Emma called out!

Everybody got really excited. It had been an unseasonably hot week so even I was amped up to play in the sprinklers.

{Sorry for the late upload today, I was out late last night with some friends and didn’t wake up for my “Special Time” until noon}