Chapter 7
Garrett woke to the sun shining through his bedroom window and immediately remembered that today was the day they would fly to Florida. The realization that the family’s trip had finally arrived caused him to sit up with excitement, only to realize that he felt exceptionally wet and clammy. Pulling back the blankets, he looked down at a thoroughly saturated Goodnites between his legs and a large wet spot on the sheets. The wetness extended up the back of his t-shirt to about his shoulder-blades and the fresh air was quickly cooling the wet cotton as it clung to his skin. His pullup must have leaked out the waist, he thought with dismay. Garrett’s mind wandered back to the multiple cups of Sprite he had enjoyed last night, and he realized he had set himself up for this one. Sliding out of bed, he stood up and felt his pullup droop with the weight of his pee. Leaking in the middle of the night was miserable, and at least the one positive thing about the diapers his mom had bought him was he knew he wouldn’t have to worry about it again for a few weeks. Garrett removed his wet t-shirt and tossed it into the hamper, then waddled to the bathroom in just the wet pullup that hung from his hips. He tossed the pullup in the trash and climbed into the shower to clean up.
Once dressed in jeans and a t-shirt, Garrett came downstairs to the smell of fresh coffee brewing and bacon and eggs cooking on the stove.
“Hi mom!” he said cheerfully to Susan who was preparing breakfast. She turned around and smiled.
“Hi honey, you sure are happy this morning,” she remarked. “It wouldn’t have anything to do with the trip would it?”
“Maybe,” Garrett said, containing his excitement. He walked over to the table in the breakfast nook just off the edge of the kitchen area where his dad was sitting, reading the newspaper. Dan lowered the paper and looked at Garrett curiously.
“Morning Garrett. Looks like you already showered, everything okay?” he asked, recognizing that everything probably wasn’t.
Garrett looked down at the table. “I…um…I leaked, so I took a shower,” he responded sheepishly.
Susan turned around to join the conversation, concerned, “Did you strip your bed honey? We’re leaving tonight and I want to be sure we get that laundry done before we take off.”
“No, but I will,” the boy responded, realizing he probably should have done that without being reminded.
“Right after breakfast, okay?” Susan reiterated to make sure he knew the importance. “Also, you should pack your clothes. Let’s not wait until the last minute.” Garrett agreed, but right now the only thing on his mind was hot eggs and bacon.
Maci arrived last, groggily walking into the breakfast nook in her pajamas with her hair up in a messy bun. Garrett always thought she looked like a disaster in the morning but figured it must be a teenage girl thing.
“Mom, can I have coffee?” she asked as she sat clumsily into a chair next to her dad, her eyes barely open.
“I suppose so. After all, today we’re officially on vacation. Would you pour a mug for your dad also?” Susan responded as she pushed bacon around on a skillet of sizzling grease. Maci stood back up and lumbered over to the coffee pot, pouring two cups of coffee. In her’s she added half-and-half and copious amounts of sugar but left her dad’s coffee black.
“Thanks sweetheart,” Dan said as he accepted the warm mug. He then directed his attention toward Susan, “So honey, it’s going to be pretty hot and humid this week in Orlando. I’m afraid we’re going to cook at Disney World. Maybe we should cancel our tickets.” The last sentence was said with a wink toward his wife, and the two turned to watch Garrett who immediately perked up.
“No! We can’t cancel!” Garrett said emphatically as his mom slid a plate in front of him steaming with scrambled eggs and cheese, bacon, and a piece of toast.
“I guess we can’t cancel, Dan,” Susan said with a shrug, and kissed the boy’s head. Satisfied, Garrett smiled and picked up his fork to begin working on one of his favorite breakfast meals.
Maci spoke up, “So when are we going to be seeing Uncle Steve and Aunt Becky?”
“Well, we’re going to take the first week to enjoy Orlando, including two days at Disney World,” Dan replied as he took a bite of crispy bacon. “I have to be in training every morning but I’ll have afternoons free and can join you. And after that first week it’ll be all field work for me, so we can drive down to Fort Lauderdale to see Steve, Becky and the kids next weekend.” Dan sipped the stout coffee that was steaming in his mug. “Susan, is your brother sure he has a place for all of us at the house?"
“He says he does,” Susan said. “It might be a little tight though. I guess Maci is going to sleep with Chloe and Sarah in Chloe’s room, and Garrett is going to sleep up in the loft with Scotty. You and I are supposed to sleep in Sarah’s room. They said it’ll work,” Susan said with a bit of a shrug. Her younger brother Steve was a lot of fun, but he wasn’t the most organized person and she doubted he had put much more thought into their stay than what she had just spelled out.
Maci was excited to see her cousins again. “It’s been five years since I saw Sarah. Gosh, I was 11 and she was nine back then! Chloe wasn’t even born yet,” she remarked as she took a sip of her coffee, feeling quite like a mature adult.
“Yeah, Scotty was only three. I guess it’ll be more fun to play with him this time now that he’s eight,” Garrett chimed in. He remembered being seven years old and playing with trucks in the sandbox with his three-year-old cousin. There had only been so much fun they could have together, but Garrett hoped they would have a bit more in common this time around.
“I just can’t wait to see you in a tuxedo,” Susan said, looking at Garrett. For a moment he was perplexed, but then realized she was talking about her younger sister’s wedding. Since it had worked out that the family would be visiting at that time, Susan’s sister had asked Garrett and Maci to be a groomsman and bridesmaid, and Garrett wasn’t exactly thrilled about the prospect. But if it meant he got to visit Disney World he figured he could tolerate one boring day in a tuxedo.
“Why did they choose to do it on the beach in the middle of summer?” Dan asked. “Doesn’t your sister realize we’re not used to the humidity? We’re going to be sweltering out there.”
“I don’t know. I guess there’s going to be a canopy or shelter or something. But yeah, I’m not looking forward to it either. We’ll just have to get through it.” Susan loved her youngest sister, but sometimes she felt like Julie opted for things based on how the photos would look on Instagram rather than whether they were practical.
With breakfast finished, Dan began cleaning up the dishes and Susan took the opportunity to follow Garrett up to his room. She didn’t want to risk any urine-soaked bedding or laundry sitting out for three weeks and becoming moldy.
“Wow, you really peed everywhere last night!” Susan exclaimed as the two surveyed the damage done to the sheets. Then turning to Garrett, “I’m pretty sure you had a lot more Sprite than you should have. You need to be more responsible than that so this doesn’t happen, okay?” She knew Garrett wanted to be viewed as a young teenager instead of a little boy, but try as he might, situations like this only served to reinforce to her that he still needed to be closely managed.
“I’m sorry,” Garrett said quietly.
“Hey, it’s okay. Accidents happen.” Susan put her arm around her son’s shoulder and hugged him from the side. “Look, don’t worry about it for now. We’re going on vacation and you’re going to have much better protection at night while we’re on the trip, so it won’t be an issue. But you’ll have to be more careful when we get home, okay?” Susan was trying not to dampen the boy’s spirits. She knew from personal experience that being a bedwetter was punishment enough, and she definitely didn’t want him stressing over this while on vacation.
Susan and Garrett began working together to strip the bed, first pulling off the bedspread and blanket, and finally the sheets, leaving only the thick plastic mattress protector. Susan gathered Garrett’s wet t-shirt and other dirty clothes from the hamper and went to start a load of laundry. “Go ahead and start packing,” she said over her shoulder as she left Garrett’s room.
Garrett hadn’t really packed a suitcase for more than an overnight trip before, but figured if he just brought his favorite clothes he should be fine. He folded an extra pair of jeans and placed them into the suitcase his mom had set aside for him, followed by a couple of pairs of his favorite shorts, some underwear, socks and t-shirts.
“Did you grab your toothbrush?” Susan asked, walking in behind him. He hadn’t yet and after a short conversation, she sent him to the bathroom to brush his teeth and gather his toiletries. While he was gone Susan took the opportunity to pack a separate duffel bag with a week’s worth of Garrett’s diapers, the wipes and the baby powder. She figured with so many diapers, there wouldn’t be room for all of them in his suitcase and it made sense to pack some separately in a carry-on just in case. Susan then put the rest of the diapers in his suitcase and tossed in an extra pair of shoes, his swimsuit and flipflops, some pajamas, and she put another pair of pajamas in the side pocket of his duffel as a backup. Having learned her lesson yesterday, she had no intention of traveling without an extra set of clothing on hand for emergencies.
Garrett walked back into the room carrying his toiletries and paused at the sight of the duffel bag filled with diapers. It hadn’t occurred to him that his mom would bring a diaper bag and suddenly he felt self-conscious again. “Do I really have to have a diaper bag?” he asked with dread in his voice.
Susan turned around, “Oh, don’t think of it that way honey. I’m just packing a carry-on with some diapers so we don’t take up all the room in your suitcase. Plus this way if you have an accident and need to change, we’ll have extra diapers with us on the plane.” Garrett felt like that was the very definition of a diaper bag, and he didn’t like it. Something about his mom having a dedicated bag for his diapers just felt juvenile, but he figured it was pointless arguing. “Here,” Susan said holding open his suitcase, “put your toiletries in this one. Maybe you can put some games or a book in your duffel bag for the flight.” Garrett did as he was told, packing his Nintendo switch, a couple of comic books, and some earbuds into the duffel. He hoped maybe his mom would download some movies for him to watch on her iPad too.
The day passed quickly with the family scurrying around to finish last minute tasks and finalize the packing. Maci fretted over not having enough shoes or something, which Garrett couldn’t understand. Dan was loading up the car as suitcases were brought to him, and Susan was gathering odds and ends like sunscreen, phone chargers, and beach towels. Garrett watched the activity and imagined what a warm Florida beach must be like. Having grown up with the rugged, rocky cliffs of Northern California and the cold harsh currents of the Pacific, he was thrilled to experience a “tropical paradise” for the first time in his life.
Garrett’s dad was outside loading the last of the suitcases into the family SUV. “What are we having for dinner?” Garrett asked as he brought his packed suitcase to Dan and watched as it was carefully loaded in with the others.
“Your mom and I thought we could eat out. We can stop for dinner on the drive to the airport, and that way we don’t have to worry about dishes or cleanup. How does that sound?” Dan asked, sitting on the bumper to take a break.
“Great!” Garrett exclaimed. He was ready for this vacation to begin.
The family climbed into the packed SUV at 5:00pm, ready to start their trip. A short drive brought them to their favorite Mexican food restaurant. Garrett loved watching the tortillas being made and had a special affinity for the chips and salsa that were brought to the table before the meal.
A waitress with dark brown hair and a friendly smile approached the table. “Hi, I’m Emily and I’ll be taking your order tonight. Let’s start with drink orders; what would you all like?”
Garrett leaned over and whispered, “Mom, can I order a Sprite?” Susan considered the sugar for a second, but figured they would be traveling all night anyway and it couldn’t hurt.
“Sure, that’s fine,” she said as she looked at her own menu. Garrett ordered his Sprite, Susan and Dan each ordered iced tea, and Maci ordered a lemonade. The waitress soon brought the beverages, chips and salsa, and Garrett dug in greedily. The chips were almost addicting, and the fire-roasted flavor of the salsa made the combination a hit. But the mild heat coupled with the salty chips left Garrett feeling parched, and he found himself accepting the waitress’ offer for a refill before the food even arrived.
After enjoying their meal the family chatted for a bit about the upcoming week in Orlando and Dan requested that the waitress bring the check.
“Hey guys, while Dad pays the bill I think it would be smart if everyone uses the bathroom,” Susan suggested. It was still almost a 2 hour drive to the San Francisco airport and she was hoping they wouldn’t have to make any unnecessary stops. Maci and Garrett rose from their seats, but Susan stopped Garrett before he could leave. “Honey, come with me out to the car.” Garrett knew what this was about. He followed his mom out of the restaurant, and watched as she opened the back hatch of the SUV. “I want you to go ahead and put a diaper on now, okay?” she explained, reaching for the duffel bag. Garrett had known this was coming, but hearing her say the words caused him to wince a little. Susan noticed his reticence. “Oh Garrett, it’s going to be fine. It’s not like we’re going to see anyone we know. It’s just in case, okay?” she reiterated, trying to ease his fears. He nodded, taking the bag in hand. It felt heavy, even considering it had a week’s worth of diapers inside.
Garrett carried the duffel bag as he and Susan walked back into the restaurant and toward the restrooms and he couldn’t help but feel some butterflies in his stomach. The idea of being diapered so early in the evening while in a public restaurant was unsettling to say the least. Dan had finished paying the bill and they passed him and Maci waiting at the front of the restaurant. “I’m going to take him to the potty; we’ll be right back!” Susan said as she walked by. Garrett caught Maci staring at the duffel bag and he blushed, realizing that she knew exactly what they were going to the bathroom to do. He looked down and walked closely behind his mom, hoping to get this over with as quickly as possible.
He and Susan reached the bathrooms and Garrett was relieved to see they were individual rooms rather than public restrooms with multiple stalls. At least he would have some privacy. They entered and Susan locked the door behind them. The bathroom was warm and well decorated with large framed photographs on the wall, and was dimly lit with a soft warm light. Mexican music played softly from speakers in the ceiling, and Garrett thought it felt fancy. He was grateful that it was cleaner than the last bathroom he’d been diapered in.
“Okay bud,” Susan said in a soft voice, “I want to you to try to go potty first, and then I’m going to show you how to put your diaper on so next time you can do it yourself.” While Garrett peed in the toilet, Susan unzipped the duffel bag and carefully pulled out a thick white diaper, the cannister of baby powder, and the package of wipes. Once he was finished she began quietly explaining her process, and Garrett watched her as she once again unfolded the diaper and began fluffing it. First folding it lengthwise down the middle, then bending it and twisting it to loosen up the padding inside, she expertly worked her way up and down the diaper and her hands moved with a gentle fluidity as she softly narrated her work.
After spreading the relaxed diaper out on the floor, Susan picked up the baby powder, twisted open the top, and sprinkled an ample amount all over the inside surface. “Baby powder will help you avoid a diaper rash and chafing, and it will help reduce any odors if you have an accident,” she said in a soft, soothing voice. Her words washed over him like a gentle wave, and Garrett felt completely at ease. He was mesmerized as he watched his mom carefully manipulate the thick diaper and listened to the soft crinkle of the plastic. The sights, sounds and smells of the fresh diaper and baby powder lingering in the air practically put Garrett to sleep. His vision relaxed as he spaced out, and he felt a tingling sensation at the top of his head, which slowly traveled down his neck and spread across his shoulders like a warm, fuzzy blanket.
The diaper now looked twice as thick as it lay spread out on the ground, but much softer and fluffier than before. “Go ahead and take off your jeans and underwear,” Susan instructed. Garrett complied, reasoning that this would hopefully be the last time he had to endure this humiliation in front of his mom. After kicking off his sneakers he unbuckled his belt, unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans, and pulled both the jeans and underwear down in one motion. “This time, I’m going to show you how to get diapered standing up,” Susan said, picking up the diaper while being careful not to spill the powder she’d sprinkled. Kneeling down, she fed the diaper between Garrett’s legs and had him lean his bottom against the wall, holding the back of the diaper in place. She then pulled the front of the diaper up tight against his body, smoothing the wings out across his hips. With capable hands she expertly taped the top tape on one side, then the other, pulling the tapes tight to ensure the snug fit around his waist would be leakproof. She then started on the bottom tapes, pulling them toward the front panel of his diaper in a slightly upward direction. Garrett could feel the diaper tighten around his leg, forming a leakproof barrier as she taped it snugly below the top tape. She repeated the process on the other side and sat back on her heels to admire her handiwork. “How does that feel?” she asked, smiling.
“It feels tight around my waist,” Garrett said, pulling up the waistband a little, then raising one foot and the other in high steps to see if the diaper would adjust around his legs.
“Is it uncomfortable?” Susan asked. “It needs to have a snug seal or it won’t do its job. You’re going to be sitting down all night, and we can’t afford to have pee press out the leg openings.” Susan placed her hands on her sons hips and gently turned him around so she could see the diaper from behind, and began inspecting the diaper’s fit around his hips and between his legs.
Garrett sighed, “It’s fine mom, but I seriously doubt I’ll even use it. I probably won’t even sleep on the plane if I’m sitting up all night.”
“It’s just in case,” Susan repeated, not wanting to have this conversation again. “You’ll be fine, let’s get dressed,” she said as she playfully smacked his diapered butt.
Garrett eagerly retrieved his underwear and jeans, but Susan stopped him, “Not your underwear. I don’t want them getting stretched out over these diapers, and you don’t need them anyway. Just put them in your bag, okay?”
“Okay,” Garrett said reluctantly as he tossed his white briefs into the duffel bag. He didn’t know why, but something about wearing only a diaper under his jeans made it feel even more awkward. He grabbed the waist of the jeans and began slipping his feet into them as Susan put away the other items and zipped up the bag.
“MOM!” Garrett practically shouted with alarm. Susan turned to see what he was doing. “I can’t button them! They won’t button!” His voice had some panic in it and Susan saw him desperately pulling at the front of his jeans as he tried to stretch them around the thick diaper. They simply weren’t big enough.
“Oh honey, I’m sorry. That didn’t even occur to me,” Susan admitted. Her mind wandered back to the Medical Supply Store they visited yesterday. Garrett had been in such a hurry to leave that they hadn’t looked at any other diapers, and he hadn’t tried these on under any clothing. She put her hands on his shoulders and looked at his pants to assess the situation. Unzipped and unbuttoned, the jeans pulled up to his hips but left a considerable portion of the diaper visible above the top of the jeans. What’s worse, there was no way to zip or button them over the thick padding he was now wearing, and Susan quickly decided it was a fruitless effort.
“Mom, I CAN’T go out in just these again,” Garrett pleaded, almost at the point of tears.
“Calm down, I won’t make you do that,” Susan said gently, hoping to assuage his fear. “Look, I put a spare pair of your pajamas in the bag. I think they’ll fit.” She unzipped the bag again and removed the lightweight cotton pajamas. They were the red superhero pajamas he’d gotten for Christmas last year: a two-piece set with long sleeves and full-length pant legs. He rarely wore pajamas at night and he could remember wearing them only once, but he recalled them fitting snugly around his body. Susan handed the pajamas to Garrett and as he held them, he remembered how soft the cotton was. In that moment he was grateful for anything he could put on, and hoped they would have enough stretch to provide some coverage. Garrett set the pajamas down and removed his legs from the jeans. While Susan folded and stowed the jeans in the duffel, Garret slipped the pajama pants on and pulled them up. They were as snug around his legs as he remembered, but he was happy to find that the cotton had plenty of stretch and they slid up over his diaper without a fight. He took off his t-shirt and noticed that his diaper still extended well above the waist of the pajama pants. Garrett quickly pulled on the form-fitting pajama top, then turned to look at himself in the mirror. He was grateful to see that the shirt fell low enough to cover the top of his diaper.
“Hey, cool! Those work, right?” Susan said, trying to sound upbeat as she stood up.
Garrett analyzed his reflection. The red pajama bottoms contoured to his body, but they weren’t so tight as to compress the diaper. The result was the shape of his diaper imprinted rather clearly through the lightweight cotton. He turned sideways to look at his profile.
“Mom, it’s really obvious that I’m wearing a diaper,” Garrett said with concern as he looked over his shoulder. With no extra room in the pajamas, his legs looked thin. That only served to accentuate the thickness of the diaper in the front and back. Around his hips it wasn’t too bad, but the diaper’s padding on his bottom was very visible, and his pants did nothing to smooth the lines.
“I really don’t think anyone is going to be paying attention honey,” Susan said with a little too much optimism. “You’re aware of your diapers because you’re focused on them, but most people are in their own little worlds and won’t even be looking at you. And maybe being in some comfy PJs will actually help you get some sleep.” Susan felt guilty sugar-coating the situation. The diapers were in fact very obvious, but she knew they didn’t have any other options right now and she needed Garrett to be okay with what he was wearing. “Put your shoes on Pal, we need to get on the road.”
Garrett walked over and sat on the toilet lid to put on his socks and shoes, and was reminded just how loud these diapers crinkled. After years in pullups, it was difficult to ignore the telltale plastic that loudly broadcast his secret with every step.
As soon as he was finished, Susan opened the door and held it for Garrett. “Go wait with Dad at the front, I’m going to use the potty and will meet you there.” Garrett’s heart was beating swiftly as he took one last look at the red pajamas that hugged his diaper and legs, and stopped just above his shoes. He felt so silly stepping out into a crowded restaurant, but what choice did he have? Garrett left his mom in the restroom and began to walk past families sitting at tables enjoying dinner, waitresses serving food and drinks, and bussers clearing tables for incoming guests. With every step, Garrett’s diaper made an audible announcement to all of them that he was passing by and he imagined dozens of eyes fixed on him. With his head down, he walked as quickly as he could and eventually made it to the front.
Dan and Maci were both sitting on the bench in front of the hostess stand, and stood up when they saw Garrett coming. He shyly watched them to see if they would react to what he was wearing, and noticed Maci’s eyes focused on his diaper for a few seconds before breaking her gaze. Garrett felt like that was confirmation that his mom was downplaying how obvious his diaper was, and he felt his face flush with embarrassment. “All set?” Dan asked him awkwardly to break the silence. Garrett nodded, only feeling even more embarrassed.
A few minutes later Susan emerged. “Okay, we’re ready to go!” she said, Garrett thought a little too cheerfully.
As the family walked to the car, Maci lagged a little to hang back with Garrett. “Hey buddy, are you really going to dress like that on the flight?” she asked, concerned.
“My jeans won’t fit,” Garrett said quietly. “Mom says nobody will be looking, but I feel like my diaper is really obvious.”
“Well, yeah it is,” Maci said. Then realizing maybe honesty wasn’t necessarily helping in this situation she added, “but maybe mom’s right. I mean, it’s not like people just walk around looking at your crotch, right? And besides, they’re all strangers you’ll never see again.” She hoped she didn’t make Garrett any more self-conscious than he was already feeling. When they neared the SUV, Maci paused as she watched Garrett walk to his side of the vehicle and climb in. He looked like an overgrown little boy in his pajamas, his shoes, and his very obvious diaper bulge. But in a way, he looked really cute. She smiled and walked around to the opposite side to climb into the back seat next to her brother.