My ABDL side came out after discovering the ABDL community and that this was a thing. I’m a regular guy with a FT job, a family, work out at the gym… and up until about 4-6 months ago I was 24/7 diaper lover.
I was wearing my regular clothes and going about my day to day activities while secretly wearing an ABDL diaper and a onesie to keep it concealed. It was one of the greatest experiences of my life. I felt secure, comfortable, adorable, excited, innocent, motivated, etc. I’d had two binge/purge cycles that would last a couple weeks.
Like some of us here I would have taken that magic pill which would make me “normal” and forget about diapers, that wish may have come true because I’ve had no desire to diaper up for about 4-6 months.
I miss it so much, I actually want it back! Life is dull without that excitement and all of the good feelings that you feel when you’re ABDL.
**NOTE: **One thing that turned me off from my DL and AB side was when I finally gave in and used a vibrator and masturbated with my diaper on, what an exhilarating feeling as the entire diaper (wet) vibrates and does the trick. Unfortunately this killed the magic I had, ABDL (FOR ME) was an innocent and clean feeling thing which made me feel adorable and secure; the sexual integration took all of that away. I wish I never did that; it changes my view and how I felt when I was diapered up.
Lol, the dreaded shame and post orgasm binge and purge cycle!
IMHO, self introspection and coming to terms with how you like and use diapers is the only solution, and practice makes it easier to establish and help reset what you may ultimately discover is irrational discust after masturbation. Many of us have gone through similar in our Puritan society… I know telling you “don’t feel that way” doesn’t help, but know you’re not alone and that things can get better if you want to work through those underlying issues. We each experience our own personal reality, and it changes minute by minute, lol - feel free to find your own path that works for you today and realize it may not always stay the same.
My desire to wear definitely goes away after sexual release be it solo or with my wife, but usually only for a few days. A week longest. I am not 24/7 though so I can’t comment on that.
Even after sex, I still want my diapers. It’s like clockwork, right after we are done, clean up and put a new diaper on. I can’t explain it, but it just feels natural.
The way I dealt with the purge part of the binge purge cycle was just to force myself to wear during the purge part. Not 24/7 but just something simple like to sleep in every other night or wear until I was finished with homework. Eventually the urge to wear came back.
I’ve also found that after obtaining more self acceptance I’ve not really had the binge/purge cycle anymore. I just wear when I feel like and don’t wear when I don’t feel like and it’s been great.
That the same with me. I will get hit with a massive binge cycle I will wear for a couple of months I’m 2 weeks into binge cycle right now and then I will not wear again for a couple of years. Give it time the urge will most likely come back. And if it doesn’t then you my may need to self reflect and self evaluate why it has not came back. Life get us so busy sometimes it just has to go to the side for awhile
@neophyte You have must have some clue of what it felt like to know wearing diapers is something done by many adults.. even masturbation in them.. I do too.. and much like someone else said i think i can even remember forcing myself to wear the diaper the rest of the night after sexual pleasure to prove in my own head at that time that i liked wearing diapers… Fact is I do.. I fucking LOVE diapers.. I would love acting out role playing with the right person.. Regardless… after finding this site and knowing their really isn’t anything wrong with wearing diapers I’mma go full time soon.. Gonna have to get some baby powder and etc.. Why do i like them??? Idk idc but i do… I REALLY love wearing diapers.. I’m not hurting anyone so why shouldn’t i feel good???
I’m sorry your ABDL experience seemed to be ruined by that. That day wasn’t a bad thing though. That day helped you learn about yourself and showed you why you enjoy diapers. They make you feel safe. Now you know what your limits are it should be very easy to not push them again.
that’s sad. i love to play with my pink vibrator after soaking my diaper and feeling all sweet and pleasured. but that might be because to me, diapers were sexual from the very beginning since the age of 3, long before i even understood those feelings
@MissAmy I couldn’t have said that better.. minus the pink vibrator lol
@neophyte give it time… if you want it to be clean then make it clean… if you can.. if you can’t don’t beat yourself up over it.. i think it’s just part of the binge purge.. ?
Antipsychotics at times completely kill my sex drive and I have big binge/purge cycles. But when I having a stressful time/voices get bad I get a lot of comfort from wearing nappies.
yes most pharmacuetical do accomplish that.. sucks too bc I should be on antidepressants… screw that… anyhow, I must sympathize with ya on the voices bc i don’t have that… and tbh I’ve been on cloud nine for the past four days I’ve been wearing… I’ll never not wear again.. if my incontinence grows worse i honestly don’t give a fuck