Instead of throwing your abdl stuff away do you binge and purge this entire lifestyle? Sometimes I’ll get super serious about the part of me and want to go to munches, conventions, reach out to others and overall start to make some little friends.
Then I get exhausted and disappear from this secret life of mine for a period of time. I never understood why people threw away perfectly good diapys but I guess we all purge in our own ways.
I’ve been there myself. I’ve never thrown my diapers away before but I have taken breaks fromif I’m all of this when I felt burned out from the whole thing or when I’m so busy/focused on/stressed from adulting that I can’t/don’t feel like being little.
Fortunately, it doesn’t happen to me quite as much as it once did, though I will admit I’m currently in the middle of trying to get out of a purge cycle. I have new diapers coming tomorrow so maybe that will help me.
The good news of course is that these purges don’t last forever. I hope you feel better soon and can return to enjoying diapers/little time soon.
Totally get that before I told my daddy about my “interests” I put away all my stuff before I told him like a year ish into our relationship, I didn’t touch my little stuff for a year, but daddy helped me become happier and accept myself, so I couldn’t leave that part of me in the closet(literally my stuff was in a closet lmao). Also sometimes I feel super little and other times I just feel older? like I am an adult but sometimes I just feel indifferent and that can be sad, but I guess its not that uncommon, but when i get a bottle of chocolate millk ITS ALL OVERRR XD
So yeah never have thrown away stuff, but definitely have taken breaks either out of shame or indifference (but those rarely happen)
Hi all.
There are four surveys of ABDLs which cast light on our experiences of the binge and purge cycle:
The greater majority have experienced at some time the ‘binge and purge’ cycle where they remorsefully renounce ABDL practices ostensibly forever, only to resume those practices at a later date. A substantial minority have never sought to renounce their ABDL practices.
Zamboni asked respondents “how many times in their life they had tried to stop their ABDL behaviours?” For the greater majority who not experienced prolonged distress for 6 or more months, the average was 5.6 times. Given that the average age of male respondents was 30.9 years and they had been practicing ABDL behaviours for an average of 17.0 years, that means the ‘average’ pattern was an unsuccessful attempt to stop every 3 years.
Zamboni reports average values. This obscures two different populations: a) a greater majority that have tried unsuccessfully at some time, and commonly on multiple occasions, to stop practicing ABDL behaviours; and b) a substantial minority that have never tried to stop. Fuss, Grey and Bent corroborate this bi-modal pattern.
Fuss asked respondents if they agreed with the statement, “I have tried to reduce or control the frequency of AB/DL fantasies, urges and behavior but I have not been very successful”, using a 5 point Likert scale (1 = totally to 5 = totally not). 18% of respondents cited ‘totally’, and only 26.4% cited ‘totally not’ indicating that this had never applied to them.
Grey1 asked, “were you ever driven by guilt to repeatedly throw away all your ABDL things … and swear that you’d ‘quit’, only to give in and get more things? 56% indicated that they had at one time been subject to this pattern.
Bent1 asked respondents, “how common has binge and purge been for you?” 70.6% had experienced the binge and purge cycle at least once, and 36% had experienced it four or more times. (The survey has a stronger representation of ABDLs who strongly identify as infants or children than the other surveys.)
For those who are subject to the binge and purge cycle the pattern can be persistent and long lasting. Zamboni found, for the minority who had experienced distress for 6 or more months, the average number of times they had tried (unsuccessfully) to stop was 13.6. The average age of this group was higher at 33.3 years, which if they had started practicising ABDL behaviours at the average age of 13.4 years, meant on average an attempt to stop about every 18 months.
Bent1 also cast light on the intervals between purge and binge. It asked, “how long have you gone totally without diapers or adult baby behavior?” Of those who renounced diapers and ABDL practices 26.2% had gone less than one month, a further 40.1% for up to a year, 12.9% for one to two years, and 20.8% for three or more years.
Zamboni2 reported that the binge and purge cycle was the second most prevalent reason for a break in ABDL practices.
The four ABDL surveys are -
Zamboni = ‘Adult Baby/Diaper Lovers: An Exploratory Study of an On-line Community Sample’ based on a 2011 survey by the late Dr Brian D. Zamboni, assisted by BitterGrey. The survey can be obtained free, on the articles tab, of abdiscovery.com.au .
Fuss = ‘Self-Reported Childhood Maltreatment and Erotic Target Identity Inversions Among Men with Paraphiliac Infantilism’ Joannes Fuss, Laura Jais, B. Terrence Grey, Sascha R. Guczka, Peer Briken, Sarah V. Biderman. Journal of Sex and Marital Therapy Volume 45, 2019, Issue 8
Grey1 = BitterGrey’s 1st survey (2006-08) which can be found on understanding.infantilism.org .
Bent1 = Adult Baby Survey #1, the results are available free to subscribers to the abdiscovery.com.au website (subscription is free gets you on the mailing list).
Regards. Dylan.
I haven’t purged in years. I feel confident saying I won’t purge again. This thing is now a lifestyle for me. I used to purge after I would masturbate. I haven’t purged probably because I have accepted this side of me. I used to purge out of shame and fury.
This is me to a t… I hate when i cant be me… Its like a reverse purge when i cant be who i am, i get anxious.
Thank you for this, I have some reading to do
I gave up the purging thing a long time ago.
Being ABDL as a person with lifelong disabilities is simply a part of my core identity.
I purge stuff I no longer like, or want..
I have had breaks for months at a time, but then it will start up again, so now I just roll with it..
I think I’m in burnout and need help
I’ve been there and it’s a bit scary because it feels like that part of you vanished. It hasn’t. I’ve actually packed up my littles’ things when they went into a depressive funk and were disinterested to the point I feared they disappeared. When they showed interest again, I was elated but I gave them time and didn’t push it.
Don’t panic. This is normal and happens. Just don’t do anything rash like getting rid of your stuff. That way, when the burnout subsides, it will be there waiting for you. 
OMG that is so nice. You’re so kind
no problem! if you ever need to talk, feel free to DM me anytime!!
The binge/purge cycle is absolutely brutal for me as well. Purges suck and you want to put as much distance between you and your little stuff as possible, but the money I’ve wasted is enough to make me just keep it because I know I’ll just end up buying it all again anyways which I’ve done multiple times.
I keep my stash small so I don’t feel like I have this huge pile of stuff I have to try and hide or store away and can be more easily managed. And if, for some reason, I feel absolutely compelled to hurl it into a dumpster, it’ll be less money wasted than if I had a bunch of little clothes, diapers and accessories. It’s a sad and painful way to live honestly, but it’s how I was programmed.
I think it’s because it tends to be pretty sexual for me and I really wish it wasn’t. I think it would be a lot less of a rollercoaster all the time otherwise.
At this stage in my life I quietly build my “Little Time Space” very slowly.
1 baby toy each month.
Maximum cost:
$20.00
The toys have to be small, like rattles or toddler FISHER-PRICE “LITTLE PEOPLE” Vehicles.
It all has to fit into a couple modest tote bins.
Yeah!
I have experienced extreme shame and inward directed fury at myself for being a Little/Adult Baby.