I seem to go through periods where I get a huge kick out of wearing diapers but then other days it doesn’t bother me. The last few days I haven’t been as bothered. Its quite conflicting inside of my mind. For example while I was on the drink I ordered a load of nappies off ebay and amazon and woke up the next day regretting it and cancelling all of my orders. A few days ago I almost told my partner that I like to wear diapers and the last couple of days Ive felt glad I havnt. Somedays I am a lot more manly, I do workouts in my home gym, have rounds on the punch bag, then other days I wear nappies. Maybe it was a thrill because it was something new but like anything the novelty can wear off. I sometimes wear panties too but since trying diapers they took over. Lately I have done neither the last couple of days. Its nice to fulfil needs but sometimes it can really complicate things. Also I ordered a free sample pull up to my house. I hope the packaging is plain because I dont want to have to be getting questioned by my wife.
From what I’ve read in many posts, your situation isn’t at all unique. I sense many people go thru the same internal struggles. I don’t think you have any real problems other than allowing yourself time to enjoy wearing, or not wearing when you so choose, as you sort thru your feelings and discover what you really would care to do.
Hey Danielle. Our life can be sooo complicated! In my uneducated mind you seem to love diapers etc.. I care for you loads as you were the second person to speak with me on this site. And I am eternally grateful for your conversation! I think you will always be one of us and I think you will need to negotiate your needs with your life situation. I’m offering my absolute support and best wishes for you.. please don’t hesitate if you need a Private chat or any other support. Also thanks again for your lovely welcome when I found this site.
My word you sound a lot like me! I have a gym in my basement, weights, punching bag, and I play metal as I’m sweating it out. I also enjoy beer and feel more excited about diapers when I’ve had a few.
I have days where I want to wear 24/7 and I want to tell people and my wife that I wear diapers; then I have days where I feel like an idiot for wearing diapers and think “wtf am I doing!?!”
It’s been a solid two year ABDL journey for myself, I’ve come to accept that I am a man and I will likely always have that desire to wear diapers.
Find that balance!